Posts by Zoos

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The Dilaudid Delusion

by Zoos in

hey folks.

just need to check in.

due to an injury, i had to start taking some pretty powerful pain killers and stayed on them for about 1 1/2 months until i finally had surgery this past wednesday.

Zoos

ABibleStudent, yes, I have done just that. A few walks, in fact, and I felt a lot better afterwards. It got me away from these walls. Change of scenery.

NonJWSpouse, that's a good idea. The pharmacist would know more about the details of these drugs than a medical doctor whose lens is focused on treating a problem - and nothing else. I should have thought of that myself as I happen to know a retired pharmacist. Thank you.

Band on the Run, so you know all about it! The cold, clammy feeling I can handle. The cramps were uncomfortable and the diarrhea was manageable, the puking...there CANNOT be anymore puking, not with the surgery on my cervical spine I just had. Nevertheless, it was the despair and crying that got my attention. All the feedback I have received from you folks seems to confirm what the clinic was telling me.

Thanks again guys for all the encouragement. I feel a lot better now that I have taken the advice of the treatment clinic and raised my Dilaudid levels temporarily for the sake of coming down slower, more safely. That seems to be the main key. I was going too fast and it knocked me on my tail.

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The Dilaudid Delusion

by Zoos in

hey folks.

just need to check in.

due to an injury, i had to start taking some pretty powerful pain killers and stayed on them for about 1 1/2 months until i finally had surgery this past wednesday.

Zoos

Kate, BoC, thank you for the supportive words.

Kate, I don't feel like doing anything silly right now but I have since gotten in touch with a treatment center that specializes in this kind of addiction. I have the hot-line on standby.

BoC, slowing down the rate of chemical decent was the very first thing they suggested. I was going WAY too fast in my enthusiasm to be rid of this.

Here again, I am disappointed with the doctor who prescribed it for at least not giving me a number to call for counseling on this. All he said was that I was going to have withdrawals and gave me a prescription for another 60 pills at half the strength I was taking and told me to step it down.

I had no idea about the side effects. I had to google them. When this depression thing hit me... I mean it was like a ton of bricks and I just knew the only way out was to die.

I feel a little more stable now. I have upped my pills to a more reasonable level, considering where I started, and I now have a plan of action.

Thank you guys for chiming in on this. It means a lot.

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The Dilaudid Delusion

by Zoos in

hey folks.

just need to check in.

due to an injury, i had to start taking some pretty powerful pain killers and stayed on them for about 1 1/2 months until i finally had surgery this past wednesday.

Zoos

Hey folks. Just need to check in.

Due to an injury, I had to start taking some pretty powerful pain killers and stayed on them for about 1 1/2 months until I finally had surgery this past Wednesday. Now it's time to come down off these 4mg Dilaudid pills (6 - 7 pills a day).

In my past I have kicked the alcohol, cocaine and cigarette habits. Those addictions are several years behind me. I remember the feigning, the craving, the desperation associated with not having those drugs. I'm not experiencing that with this Dilaudid drug. I can honestly say I have no urge to take more. That's a HUGE card in my favor for beating this thing. I'm not psychologically addicted, but I have a strong physical dependence.

I've been stepping the drug down slowly. I plan on taking three 2mg pills today. Even with that, I am having some pretty severe withdrawal symptoms- the worst one being an overwhelming sense of gloom, uselessness, and suicidal thoughts. The entire weight of my exit from the WT organization and the loss of family has landed on my shoulders the last couple of days and I feel like I'm about to crumple.

I understand the mechanics of withdrawal. My logical mind knows what's going on. Unfortunately my logical mind is not the most in charge right now and I have spent the morning crying over the most ridiculous things.

I'm pretty disappointed that doctors prescribe this stuff without providing a plan of action for coming off of it safely. I'm having to navigate this on my own and I don't know if I'm doing it right. I only know that I want to be free from the cloud I'm under.

If any of you have any experience with this drug please chime in. I could use some advise.

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Remember!! THE SLAVE says , " GO DEEP!! EVEN WHEN IT HURTS!! IT'S GOOD FOR US TO LET THE SLAVE GO DEEP..."

by suavojr in

datadog just mentioned this on his thread about the special ass day.

so just don't forget that for this year's rc they are going deep inside........ they are going to tell us how we all are just a long and same generation and therefore we cannot determine how close the end is by observing the lifespan of humans.. but do not worry, we have the signs!!

the signs of the end.... .

Zoos

2014 District Convention baptismal talk, entitled, "Prepare Your Anus!"

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Sad news ...

by Oubliette in

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Zoos

That's cute. I used to have a Dough Boy toy when I was a kid. Poked that sucker to death.

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Post the funniest WTBTS quote you can think of

by DuvanMuvan in

just felt like a laugh.. if any funny quotes come to mind feel free to post them here.

Zoos

* * * Letter fom Governing Body, Yearbook, 2009 * * *

We want to assure you that you are always in our thoughts and prayers and that we love you very much. May Jehovah pour out upon you his rich blessings.

Your brothers,
Governing Body of Jehovah’s Witnesses

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"An a great war broke out in heaven..."

by Zoos in

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friends

king charles russell did battle with priest guy pierce over who has the right to continue directing the affairs of the watchtower from heaven.

and priest pierce threw new beams of light at king russell but he did not prevail, neither was a place found for him, or his higness knorr or his majesty franz.. woe to the earth, for they make us hurl!.

Zoos

King Charles Russell did battle with Priest Guy Pierce over who has the right to continue directing the affairs of the Watchtower from heaven. And Priest Pierce threw new beams of light at King Russell but he did not prevail, neither was a place found for him, or His Higness Knorr or His Majesty Franz.

Woe to the earth, for they make us hurl!

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A contribution from one of the members!

by Atlantis in

a contribution from one of the members who doesn't get to post very often.. ... .......... ........................ ......... ..........atlantis

Zoos

This thread is SOOOO marked!

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WT wants members to auxiliary pioneer in place of vacations now!!!

by EndofMysteries in

the may 2014 km, posted in another thread is a link to download it.

page 2, for week starting may 19th under the service meeting:.

discussion.

Zoos

"How would you like it if Jehovah took a vaction from you?"

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New Light - Good for goose... gander SOL

by Zoos in

when jws accept new light they must, by default, accept that what they were teaching was false.

they allow themselves the luxury of error so long as it is in the pursuit of better understanding.. .

you would think this scenario demands that allowance be made for other religions with false teachings, but alas, no.

Zoos

BEMUSED - Also, if you accept new light, don't you also have to accept that there may well be more new light in future, ie accept that some of the current doctrines are probably wrong?

I agree with your reasoning here, but I have heard JWs say that in its entire history they have never had to change any of their "core" doctrines; trinity, immortality of soul, heavenly/earthly hope, etc... Only minor adjustments in understand.

I suppose the change from 1879 - 1914 second coming could be considered core, but that's so long ago it doesn't count.

GINGERBREAD - "We must wash our brains clean of the former thought and embrace the correct 'New Light' from Jehovah's faithful and discreet slave."

If that's an accurate quote, that is just horrifying.

Lot's of great comments. Thanks!