I guess that the reason why I'm posting this is that I'm feeling cheated - and stupid. Stupid for not questioning the lies... Cheated for the time that I wasted....
Just reading the book, "Crisis Of Conscience", and I am appalled. Simply appaled.
It's pretty stupid that I could believe those lies, and fall for it. Sure, I was emotionally distressed, but why was I so blind? I just feel really bad right now. Hurt. However, I feel no anger toward anyone in the borg - just sadness. I dunno - I don't know how to put it into words.
Is this normal? I really didn't want to revisit my leaving this religion, but, now that I am, it is actually becoming painful to relive the lies. Ignorance is bliss - is it really worth it?
I feel beat-up.