Your soul is worth £14315. For your peace of mind, 63% of people have a purer soul than you.
Woohoo! I won!
*looks again* Oh wait...no I didn't. Abaddon did. LOL
Posts by Piph
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12Sell your soul online!
by Abaddon inat last, selling your soul can be done quickly and easily online... unfortunately i have soiled (or souled) goods;your soul is worth 6170. for your peace of mind, 90% of people have a purer soul than you.. .
see how much yours is worth!.
http://www.wewantyoursoul.com/.
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My Best Friends Still Love Me
by Piph ini had a talk with my best friend (who is still an active jw) the other day, and told her that i wasn't interested in remaining an active witness any more.
i knew she would accept my feelings, because she's a wonderful person and is actually very emotionally healthy, but was afraid because i didn't really know how tight a grip the mind control had on her, and didn't know if she would feel obligated to back off in our friendship any.
i was deeply afraid of that, because we're as close, if not closer than, sisters.. to my pleasant surprise, she not only totally accepted my feelings, but she already knew what i was going to say before i said it.
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((((sns)))) It's scary...isn't it? I'm really glad we have each other.
Blondie...such sad experiences. It's amazingly ridiculous, isn't it? And those are beautiful lyrics. Thanks for sharing. Yeah...I can't even imagine what I'd be going through if it wasn't for Euph. He's incredibly brave.
Thanks Badger. In my email to my mom, I basically described my emotional journey for the past few years. I just explained how I got to where I am and why I need to do this for my own emotional health. PM me if you'd like more specifics...I can send you parts of the email if you think it would help you in your situation.
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How much have you had to drink.
by JeffT ini hit ozzy osbourne.
frightening.
http://www.iondesign.net/drinkometer/
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Homer Simpson
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My Best Friends Still Love Me
by Piph ini had a talk with my best friend (who is still an active jw) the other day, and told her that i wasn't interested in remaining an active witness any more.
i knew she would accept my feelings, because she's a wonderful person and is actually very emotionally healthy, but was afraid because i didn't really know how tight a grip the mind control had on her, and didn't know if she would feel obligated to back off in our friendship any.
i was deeply afraid of that, because we're as close, if not closer than, sisters.. to my pleasant surprise, she not only totally accepted my feelings, but she already knew what i was going to say before i said it.
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I was really embarrassed about this thread after the debacle that happened...one of the friends I thought I was going to be able to "keep" was the one who turned us in! I was just really surprised, because we'd been so close for eight years...and she seemed so supportive...it's just amazing the level of mind control that goes on.
The other was still loving and supportive of my feelings and views, but in view of all the changes going on, can't really associate with us or else she would endanger her own standing as well as ours. So, although we no longer associate, at least I know I still have her love. That actually is enough for me right now. She has too much at stake in her life right now to endanger herself for one friend. I totally understand and respect that.
My parents...my dad actually was the most supportive. He told me he wanted my wedding day to be happy and he said that they were going to do everything they could to keep it "the second happiest day of my life"...next to my baptism, I assume...*hurl*
After we got back from the honeymoon, my mom and I exchanged emails and she laid on the guilt pretty thick. But I was able to stand by my...self? (LOL) and explain to her how I felt. She was much more reasonable after that, and I felt much more confident and at peace with myself. We even had them over for drinks...and although things were strained, they at least were respectful enough of us to keep it light.
So...all in all...things are OK. Thank you all for your kind words and encouragement. It means a lot.
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What was the first "Bad" CD/Record/Tape you ever bought?
by ColdRedRain ini was looking on the thread on music when i just thought to ask that question.
for me, it was gwar's violence has arrived.
i remember loving that band so much when i first heard of them to the point where i downloaded everything they had, from album mp3's to rare bootlegs.
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A David Bowie greatest hits album. I was obsessed with him after watching Labyrinth, only knew a couple of his songs from the radio, he was my new favorite singer, and I didn't buy any of his tapes for two years. I didn't tell any of my pioneer friends that I had his tape, and I desecrated my first Bowie cds by throwing the jackets out if they had questionable pics, or marking the songs out I didn't allow myself to listen to.
I really regret not having the pics that go with Ziggy Stardust and the Man Who Sold the World.
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The Unbarred Gate
by Euphemism inthis is a poem i wrote while piph and i were on honeymoon.
i don't claim that it's a good poem, but i'm trying to be more open about my feelings, so i thought i'd share it.
so please bear with me.
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I loved it then and I loved it now.
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Since You've Stopped Going To Meetings, What's Your General Outlook?
by minimus in.....in life?
do you still have hope?
are you truly much happier?
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I was worried about death for quite a while, but it seems to have mysteriously evaporated. I had to come to terms, I think, with the loss of belief in Paradise. I used to have all these plans for the future, then I was like, shit, I have to do this in one lifetime?? LOL
But life feels more real now. Things have been much better since we stopped going to meetings. It's only been a coupla weeks, but the difference is huge. It doesn't feel as important to know what happens after death...as long as I feel happy and fulfilled now, I'm not missing out on anything.
Like I said to Euph the other day, My future's so bright, I gotta wear shades!
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My Best Friends Still Love Me
by Piph ini had a talk with my best friend (who is still an active jw) the other day, and told her that i wasn't interested in remaining an active witness any more.
i knew she would accept my feelings, because she's a wonderful person and is actually very emotionally healthy, but was afraid because i didn't really know how tight a grip the mind control had on her, and didn't know if she would feel obligated to back off in our friendship any.
i was deeply afraid of that, because we're as close, if not closer than, sisters.. to my pleasant surprise, she not only totally accepted my feelings, but she already knew what i was going to say before i said it.
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LOL
Thanks you guys.
There are a lot of friends I know I'm going to lose, and I'm just really glad I can count on at least a couple of people in my life. (Other than all you guys, that is )
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Hey Tink! Sending you lots of and (((((HUGS))))) your way!
Love,
Piph
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My Best Friends Still Love Me
by Piph ini had a talk with my best friend (who is still an active jw) the other day, and told her that i wasn't interested in remaining an active witness any more.
i knew she would accept my feelings, because she's a wonderful person and is actually very emotionally healthy, but was afraid because i didn't really know how tight a grip the mind control had on her, and didn't know if she would feel obligated to back off in our friendship any.
i was deeply afraid of that, because we're as close, if not closer than, sisters.. to my pleasant surprise, she not only totally accepted my feelings, but she already knew what i was going to say before i said it.
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I had a talk with my best friend (who is still an active JW) the other day, and told her that I wasn't interested in remaining an active Witness any more. I knew she would accept my feelings, because she's a wonderful person and is actually very emotionally healthy, but was afraid because I didn't really know how tight a grip the mind control had on her, and didn't know if she would feel obligated to back off in our friendship any. I was deeply afraid of that, because we're as close, if not closer than, sisters.
To my pleasant surprise, she not only totally accepted my feelings, but she already knew what I was going to say before I said it. She told me that she understands and supports me, even though she feels that she needs to stay close to Jehovah herself for now. We talked about it for a few hours, and I was a little afraid she didn't really understand that I was going apostate, but after a while she started talking about how unfair it was that someone couldn't just decide they didn't want to be a Jehovah's Witness anymore without getting df'd. We talked for a while about the unscripturalness of disfellowshipping and about all sorts of other unscriptural and/or unhealthy things Jehovah's Witnesses teach.
It was such a big relief to me, because even though I knew she would accept my feelings, now I know that I even have her support. My other closest girlfriend, also a loyal JW, also knows about Euphemism and my -um -defection, and though she doesn't understand, she's still loyal enough to want to continue associating with us despite everything, because she doesn't really believe in the whole disfellowshipping thing herself.
But anyway. I just feel good that I still am able to keep my two closest friends, and I wanted to share my good news with you guys. I figure it's only a matter of time for my closest friend to reach the point emotionally where she's ready to leave...I'm not sure about my other friend, but at least I know she still loves me.
I'm still afraid of how my parents will react...I know they'll be a lot less accepting and understanding!