Kate, I know what you mean. I am usually a bit of a pistol BUT I thought I had to REALLY respect the elders and look up to them, in case Jehovah struck me down!!
As I suffer from depression, I used to bottle it all up and cry when I got home. I realised that was'nt the way I was meant to feel and had to get out.I know now, many of you guys woke up and smelt the coffee ages ago and got the hell out. About 8 years ago my best friend got DF'd and tried to kill herself. The way her family treated her was disgusting. You would treat a street dog better. That's when I started thinking and was inactive from 2006 to 2013. When I came back earlier this year, I knew it was just a matter of time before I threw in the towel. It was a sharp learning curve, everything I ever beleived in from a child was smashed to smithereens. My Mum is still in but is not regular at the meetings. She prefers to stay in with a bottle of wine and Murder She Wrote. She is still speaking to me.She's a rebel.
Thanks for the support.