Hi Winnie. Welcome to the gang.
So sad to hear you've not been feeling well. The KH is not a great place to be if you suffer from low moods, depression and lack of confidence. Try and distance yourself. Have you thought about seeing a counselor? I'm not sure if it would involve money where you are.
College sounds a great idea but I agree with adamah, try staying close to home in the beginning. There will be student support there for you as well.
Build on your relationship with your dad.
Keep posting. You will find lots of support here. I am so glad I found these guys and you will too.
Love, QCF