I can not improve on the help available here But just a couple of things.
If you are the youngest then your 'velcro' parents will cling like the said to hold you. I was the last of a big family and i was born to be the perfect child and cosseted and smothered along the way and we didnt know the 'truth' at that stage of life so your M & D just dont want to let go.
There were some Awakes that stated it is not a bad things to scrutinize your beliefs but i cant recall which awakes said that. Others here can no doubt.
Well you are out for a bumpy ride and this site is your seat belt.
ps. Guilt is what we allow others to do to us. The WTS thrives on guilt trips.