Hi all,
Well, here it is, after almost 20 years 12 of those serving in position of responsibility it comes down to my spiritual execution(JW style). Allow me to explain. For those who you who still remember me from H20 under the name truthexodus I came to post my experience as an elder of local congregation in NYC area. All along my intent was to render help to the friends so they can be more openminded and research the JWs believe system. I became aware of so many errors within the org. I did not know who to turn to for help. So I came to H20 and freeminds. At one point I almost had a mental breakdown. Thanks to my loving wife who has been very supportive I was able to maintain myself. I was getting bombarded with so many issues and questions even from the friends at the hall. I did not want to reveal my true feelings yet. But one day one of my close friends who at the time was serving as MS and Reg. pioneer was asked to appear before a Judicial hearing for comments he made regarding the Bulgarian decision. He has previously shared this information with me but of course I was already aware of this fiasco. Anyway, he was put before a tribunal made of all his body of elders and the CO. He was interrogated for almost five hours. He was under a lot of stress because of all this. I became more convince about how the org. handles this type of situation. My friend was subsequently removed and they never follow his case or called him for another judicial meeting. I was very upset about this incident when one day another close friend from my local hall called with a problem she was having. I tried to reason with this her and told her under any circunstance I was not in position to make any judgement for anybody including her. I say it was up to each indivual to decide for themselves. I also told my friend I was ashamed of being part of judicial committee. I thought it was unloving and unkind to put someone thru this ordeal. I later made other comments some of which I sent to her by an email regarding the way certain things are handle spefically when it deals with questioning the Faithful and Disceet slave. I later apoligize as I was under much stress. But I was still convince that the only way to fix this was a need for reform. This close friend at the time agreed with me and even reply back to me feeling the same way. We came to agree to all the misunderstanding. Well, after about a year and a half, one day a prominent Elder and assistant to the CO called my house with a serious problem. He say two sister were disturbed about certain comments I made regarding the faithful and discreet slave. I was curious as I only discuss this with two people one being from my hall. I was asked to appear to answer this allegations. I showed up at this meeting. None of the local elder was called about this. The CO was notified of course being that I was an Elder and PO. Well, I showed up at the hall. Four elders showed up two local and the prominent Elder along with a Bethel Elder. The allegations were that I had made comments detrimental to the org. I had no idea who my accuser were so I was desperate to know who were this mystery witnesses. I was shocked that there was a total of eight people testifying about comments I made to them or at the meetings. I will not go in detail about this because it was either unfounded, irrelevant, and useless only to make appear that I said those things. I was sad about why all this people were actually feeling this way without even confronting me first. Well, the last person to testify was, you guest it! The one I had shared some thoughts about the org.. Along with her was the Mother and a close friend who became aware of the problem. Even the husband of her close friend was asked to be there to testify. All this was a travesty and absurd. I stood there listening to all this allegations.
After all this happened I sent letter to the Elders for explaination as why they did not allowed me to confront them in private. Why was I not allowed to ease their mind? When they immediately received the letter sent three elders to notified me that a judicial committee was formed and that I was to appear for the hearing. At that time I will be allow to bring any witnesses and say what ever I had to say. Of course I proceded to send a second letter for explanation as to what were the charges. No response other than a postponement for another hearind date.
Well, today is the day when I’m suppose to appear before this judicial committee to answer charges I guess of apostacy. Will I show up to this Kangoroo court? Hell no!!
I’m not wasting my !@#$ time with this jerks and just like JRBROWN said untrained men!! They have severed my close friendship I had and now they want cut me for good!! What a loving organization. I suppose that they will eventually disfellowship me like I care. I’m out and don’t to deal with the emotional roller coaster.
One thing for sure, I have prepared myself for this a long time ago. Aside from helping Bill Bowen with his cause with exposing pedophile in the HALL I was in contact with Dateline producers about my particular case. From our discussion and Bill can attest to what I’m saying, Dateline seem very interested in doing a segment dealing with the emotional pain as a result of shuning and how organization handle this issues their members. I have no more fear. I feel free to think , I feel a sense of peace within.
I personally want to thank Bill and Sheila Bowen for all the help, encourgement and love. Bill and Sheila God bless you and family. I also want to thank Amazing for all you did for me. I will never forget your reply to my email. God bless you. To PATRIOT thank you Bro. for being a true friend. In my moments of despair you and your wife were a source of healing for us. To WORF I will never forget your help Men , thanks a million!! And last but not least to RANDY WATTERS and KENT. Thank you guys for all your effort and hard work. Keep your site running because a lot of friends will benefit from it. To everyone on this discussion board whom I’ve come to know a big hug and thank you for saving my family from this destructive organization. Even you FRED HALL thank you. Its not worth fighting for this organization. It’s just a waste of time.
I hope to continue posting here and hope that everyone will go easy on me. It takes time to heal and deprogrammed yourself from a destructive org. Thank you and sorry for this lenghty post. Look forward for your responses.