Update:
Thanx for all the positive energy and thoughts in your posts. I truly appreciate it.
I left the house apprehensively and left a note for Wifey on the computer that read "Went to Church - [Gulp]"
I went to the little M.E. Church in a little town just 3 miles from my home. When I arrive I find that there is only room enough for maybe 12 cars in the parking lot and a few more could park on the street. So it was obviously a small group. I noticed only two cars in the lot, but that the lights were on inside.
I walked to the front doors. Locked. I walked to the back door thinking maybe they use the back entrance for mid-week Bible study, also locked. I walk back to my car. I sat awhile, wondering just what this meant. I sat in my car for a few minutes. No other cars arrived. I decided to walk up to the back door and try once again. There was a door-bell. Never saw this at a Kingdom Hall. I rang. Soon I hear footfalls coming to the door. A pleasant lady of middle age opens the door. I ask if she is the pastor, since I knew the Pastor was female. No she said. I asked if this was the correct night for the Bible study? She told me yes, but that due to the holidays and having just finished up Rick Warren's "Purpose Filled Life" they were taking a break until after New Years. She invited me in.
I stepped into a small, homey feeling room with maybe 20 pews arranged in two rows. The woodwork in the room was beautifully finished in a dark walnut. Inside I met another lady also. Seems they were holding the choir practice tonight, but no one was there yet. We spoke for maybe 10 minutes, during which I informed them of my 40 year background in a cult. I mentioned that I wondered why I was even at this particular church at all, and the answer [unsurprisingly] that perhaps the Lord had lead me here. I agreed that might be the case. I imagine I looked quite nervous at this point. They invited me to observe choir practice. I politely declined.
While I was there they offered me a copy of the church bulletin, gave me a copy of a daily devotional called the "Upper Room". Just before I left they took my number so that they could call and confirm what night they would resume the Bible study. Then she gave me a copy of a CD of the two of them had made last year entitled " Duet for Him". I will listen to it later this evening, as gospel music has become a passion of mine in recent months.
I must state that one thing that was 'attractive' to me as a witness early in my cultship was the country church atmosphere that held there in the small Kingdom Halls in the 60's. And in those days the love was really there too. [At least much more than in later years]. I felt a similar feeling here, which was both comforting and terrifying in the same moment.
Looks like they return to the normal schedule in two weeks. I shall return.
Jeff