Suicide

by Regrets 44 Replies latest jw experiences

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  Satanus

  Often people speak of suicide as a selfish act. For the one who is doing it, me for instance, that was the furthest from the truth. Although twisted, the idea is that if I am removed from loved ones lives, then the pain of my mistakes go away.

  It seems to me that pain, the stopping of pain might be the main motivation for suicide. The wt doesn't know what it's talking about when they talk of selfishness. But then, the wt doesn't want their people to ever think of or for themselves, anyway. I'm glad that you are finally unloading this burden. It takes courage and honesty.

  S
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  skeptic1914

  I want to commend every person who has posted here for their compassion and understanding regarding Regrets.

  I second that. About a year and half ago a 29 yr. old father of 2 I knew commited suicide. At the time I admired him. He carried out what I had only thought of, planned but never carried out.

  I have felt the desperation and 'suicide is the only option' as recently as last week. Today I see light at the end of the tunnel.

  Skeptic1914
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  Lady Lee

  Good for you skeptic1914

  Sometimes it may feel like you are going backwards but when we are in the middle of desperation it can be hard to see the progress.

  And believe me some days for me it was a moment to moment hanging on by a thread nevermind 1 day at a time.

  But they didn't beat me down. I'm still here and almost all of my abusers are dead.
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  bluebell

  I used to want to commit suicide. My way of justifying it was that as dubs all the family would forget the badness of the past in paradise and so I would be just a distant faded memory. I didn't kill myself because I didn't want to cause pain and upset to my family, figured I'd keep my pain to myself rather than pass it on. I tried it once but I was very drunk and it didn't work, can't remember what happened so don't know if I did try or whether what happened was just an accident, either way I'm glad it didn't work. The other times I just didn't have the "courage" to do anything, just sat there with a blade to my wrist unable to go any further. The amount of times I just wanted to drive into a tree...

  The dark little hole that you live in when you are depressed and suicidal is the most horrible place in the world and I hope that I will never return to it.
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  sass_my_frass

  ((regrets)) ((Mrs Regrets))

  Do get counselling; this isn't over.