Being a double agent takes balls and a lot of patience!
Double agent here! And yes, it takes cajones to do that.....it is strenous and hitting my emotional health....
I agree wholehearthly with Snakes and Flipper. Both Spot-on and in the know. I feel ashamed to mention the amount of JC I've had to participate and shudder to think about the results of the decisions that where taken....
I was the one that had to "force" others on the JC to "take it easy".......it gets very, very stressful and got me many sleepless nights, thinking about the "poor bastard" that had to loose his/her dignity in front of a JC......I once told another elder (of the liberal sort, like us here) that I would rather sit in front of a Catholic priest and confess than sit in a JC myself....it has at least more dignity to sit in a quiet, dark booth, pouring your heart than the court thing......(as a side note: I feel liberated, refreshed and free since I completely dismissed the idea of "sin", "confession" - specially to other humans and other rubbish like that.......but that is another thread). Yes, like Snakes said: I would confess sh%$# to a JC.
Anyway, what can I do? Fading and doing the double agent thing is difficult (specially because of family).....but at the same time, I am in a position that allows me "to pay back" and conduct some kind of "guerrilla warfare" of some sort.......(I am well respected), so I let people slip through (that confess some sort of sin, NO JC for them if they come to me FIRST), or I have "lost" JC papers (never sent them) and all sorts of things that I can't discuss publicly, since that would give away too many of the "nice tricks" I have up my sleeve and where I will NEVER get caught.......fun, fun, fun.
I'm sorry for being in this position and sorry if I hurt somebody in the past. I don't know how long I will be able to play "cat and mouse" tricks with the borg........but will use my "time wisely" (hate that expression) being in the position I still have......
RedPill.