Almost 25 years ago, at 17, I fell under the spell of this gorgeous, sexy, blond sister from a neighboring cong'. I carried this crush like a pathetic puppy for almost 2 years, never summoning the nerve to ask her out. I deservedly lost the girl.
Time passed and by 22 I found myself married and, for the most part, happy. We are still married, with kids (starting to leave the nest) and a dog and a settled life. I'm not complaining, it's good.
Here's my problem.
I joined an ex-jw list at meetup.com some years ago. I've never been to a meetup but I get the automatic updates when someone else signs up - and guess who just did?!
I couldn't believe it when I saw her picture. We've exchanged a few emails and I told her about the ridiculous crush I had on her back in the early 80's. We've both moved on of course and there is no way I'd risk my marriage for some vain, ego trip to the past.
I know the answer to my own question, of course I do. There's no sane advice you can give me that I wouldn't have offered to some other twit in my place just 2 days ago. But...I do want to see her, and it seems like she'd be happy to see me too.
I'm in serious shit here aren't I?