Hi, -your position is a natural one if you genuinely have left, Some are in a state of spiritual hypnosis for many years, even decades - knowing it is fundamentally flawed but at the same time finding no alternative which helps or releases them spiritually.
It is part of them standing in the nucleus of family ineractions like some body influencing all your responses to friends/family whilst at the same time influencing any of those from family/ friends towards you. And if your family are not JWs you have already been polarised beyond their orbit so that any communications are similarly detached. WT know this from many generations of trial and error psychology!
They used it on me saying children will be disobedient to parents so that I will blame it all on them and stick to their rules. They use it on my children when I did not go saying those who fade are not following the will of God and do not have His protection so my childrens minds are in conflict with my position as well as thier own. And they then know that having parents and children not fully synchronised will leave each feeling isolated and the idea is they come back to a common body of clones sitting for hours looking up scriptures they have done countless times already for the sake of shares in the afterlife because this one has been dysfuncyionalised. But if you go out looking for fun times - and why is that so wrong for any human who is human?? - you have fallen away from God so your only escape is to sit at meetings looking up scripture!! It will soon be Jehovasmass and he will come down your chimney so save yourself for then.
http://www.stage6.com/user/boothead/video/1550078/Maybe-Logic:-The-Lives-and-Ideas-of-Robert-Anton-Wilson
This link has shorter exerpts on you tube if you don't like the whole 90mins. This guy is true in what he says about himself being declared a pope so he can make others into popes. JW thinking is similar !