by cognac 32 Replies latest jw friends
Just about everyone I've known my whole life thinks somethings wrong with me because of my "Abnormal Thinking". Everyone is in agreement that there is something wrong with ME.
I just keeping thinking I'm doing something wrong or I should be doing something different. I don't feeling terrible about it or anything, just this nagging thing in me.
Wish it would go away...
Anybody else ever get that???
it gets easier coggy.......years of indoctrination don't go overnight.....by the time you are 90 it should be gone.....just ask snowby.....(disclaimer.....ninja may just be annoying his wee mate snowb...he he)
Symptoms of de-programming. Yes, I get them and it's a normal feeling. Mental health is a slow process.
Hang in there!
Hmm, are these Witnesses who think that?
Of course they would. You are stepping out of the box being a Witness puts you in.
I was dealing with that feeling for a while. My therapist said I was acting completely normal. Relief flooded me. Then I whacked my husband over the head with the info and told him the problem must be him!
momz
It doe get easier be yourself and trust yourself too.
As your circle of friends widens that helps too
regards david
Thanks so much everyone! I feel so much better. Didn't know why I felt guilty...
Then I whacked my husband over the head with the info and told him the problem must be him!
lmao!!!!
So, not to hijack my own thread or anything, but our assembly is coming up so maybe that's why I'm thinking about it more. I'm going to have to face my family that I have not spoken to. I know what I'm going to do, sit behind them, just be happy, smile at them but don't approach them, let them approach me... However, when one of them walks up to me I don't know what to actually say and am afraid of them making me feel even more guilty... Acckkk, oh well, just wing it I guess...
Maybe I can leave my computer in my car and run out to it and come on here if I need help, lol
Maybe you can have horrid cramps that day?
If you do go, don't sit by your family. The other side of the auditorium would be good.
JW`s want you to feel guilty..If your not a JW,you must be guilty of something..You could be guilty of not being a JW..You could be guilty of not being a good enough JW..You could be guilty,of not feeling guilty..
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...OUTLAW
Someone else said symptoms of deprogramming and years of indoctrination, I completely agree. Cognac, the things you are feeling are all facets of what has been taking place in your life. You are not allowed to challenge what they have deemed "truth" and because of that you have been filled with guilt and fear for honestly examing life through your own eyes as an individual.
The path of individuality is much stronger than the indoctrination of group think, if you allow it through fruition, you will find yourself.
You are getting there, there is absolutely nothing wrong with you. Freedom is just around the corner...
Maybe you can have horrid cramps that day?
If you do go, don't sit by your family. The other side of the auditorium would be good.
lol, I plan on sitting a few rows behind them. I want to face this head on... I don't want to hide from them as if I did something wrong. However, I still don't know what the hell to actually say.
