by oompa 83 Replies latest jw friends
Oompa could be bi-polar all day long.
His circumstances made it worse. It's what happens when you have to lead a double life. You are NEVER allowed to be yourself. You have to be one person in public to the Dubs. Then you have one person that you love (which would be your inner child).
I wore headphones and blasted Kiss and the Stones.
I see a difference too oompie. I see a man trying to find out who he wants to be. I can almost feel you trying to burst thru the bubble all of us were in as Witnesses. I can feel the strain, then the drawing back. Whether in fear, or someone pulls you back in.
You'll be OK. The bubble will pop eventually.
momz
I had a 20 year marriage, to a brother, break up. I've been there. I understand.
By the way, my sister in law takes the tiniest dose of prolixin. She had such bad side effects that she talked her doctor into trying less and less of it. They finally found a dose that makes her normal and has no side effects. It's the smallest dose of prolixin he's ever given anyone and he learned from her case to try less when his bipolar- with- psychotic- features patients have severe side effects.
My sis in law will tell you she used to be the life of the party and bounce off the walls and then end up stuck in a car in a vacant lot for two days unable to get out of the car because she was so delusional. She's been hospitalized in restraints more than once. And if she doesn't take the prolixin, she's right back into that kind of severe mania within days. Her case is more extreme, but untreated mania in anyone can end in disaster or tragedy. And this is true for anyone who is reading this thread with untreated mania. Please get help.
Dinah, you are not crazy for being bipolar, but untreated chemical imbalances like manic depression can make you feel and act crazy. As Jimi Hendrix said, "Manic depression's a frustrated mess."
Manic Depression
by Jimi Hendrix
Manic depression is touching my soul
hmmm so it not even 4:00 am usa east coat...and where the fluck is everybody...thanks all...thanks for not hating me so much....well...sleep would be nice....but not much of that around.....think i will go for a bicycle ride.............oomps.....
i swear..... i am ready to EXPLODE!!!!.....just suffocating here...thank you all
Oomp,
Sorry you are so wound up tight right now. Try some meditation to chill, or ride the bike.
JK
oompa my friend. I couldn't bring myself to post on this thread yesterday. I got too emotional about it. But I am going to be off line for a bit and couldn't leave here with out letting you know how I feel.
I have mixed feelings about you being off your meds right now. But mostly, because I listen to you, in your posts and in our personal messages...I understand WHY it is important for you to try life with out them right now. I want to go down as saying that I support you in that. If you can't manage without them....you know how to find your meds and take them....you are not 12....you are a grown man who is dealing with so much right now.
Sometimes we forget, those of us who have been through major life traumas, that when we are living in the frey of emotional chaos, it is hard to be aware of what is going on in the lives of those around us. Call it the bubble syndrome. Your life situation is screaming so loud....it is all you can hear. Can't anyone here relate to this????
Oompa, you are also this extrovert extravaganza, and need to talk to people. So, you end up being misunderstood. Laughing is medicine to you, more important to you than to most, but everything that is funny to you isn't funny to others. PLUS....you are moving at the speed of light right now...hard to keep up with that.
I for one understand that you meant no one harm, you are just trying to push through this extremely hard time in your life. I have been there so many times. Don't wreck your life....live it.....in the meantime you have friends here at JWD.
wings
whew....thanks wings....that was a nice thing to see this morning
but: extrovert extravaganza?????
You obviously dont know......... poor poor pitiful me......very well...Ronstadt......i am such a shy wallflower....totally vanilla.....and mellow
that sleep thing is just soooo over rated!
whew..............oomps
ride the bike.
Bike, what bike?
