NLP... welcome! The feelings you are going through are completely natural and normal. You will probably feel anger at some point because you have been lied to. And you will probably have a lot more questions. We all understand what you are going through and how you feel.
I suggest that once you are ready, begin looking at your life with a new outlook. Start to think about what you want out of life and what you wish to do with it. Since you have been in a cult for many years with the belief that the end of the world was just around the corner, you may not have done a lot of 'life planning'. I personally relate to Stephen Covey's books "The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People" and "First Things First". Life is for living... I hope you can look forward to one that is fun and enjoyable, instead of being filled with doom and gloom. Welcome to Your Life!