notverylikely,
I think I understand where you are coming from and what you mean, I say I think because I can't know for sure.
For many years I questioned and ask God, well, yelled actaully, for the truth, for the why's.
I asked when I saw horrid things in Bosnia.
I asked when I found out that some one I cared about and her sister were sexually assaulted by a family memeber.
I asked when I saw all that was wrong going on in the world and I asked when My Mother became and JW and took my older sister and father with her.
I never got an answer in years and years of asking.
Untill that day that I did get an answer.
I can only speak for myself and I am being as honest and truthful to you as I can be because I can be no other way:
I would NOT have been able to handle God's answer to me when I first posted those questions, no way, no how.
I just wouldn't be able to.
I am sorry that this is probably NOT what you wanted to hear, but I feel I am speaking from the heart.