Laverite- I read your story and... :( I saw so many parallels, and I hope if i Decide to stay and weather the storm, That i will at that point of contentment one day. Thank you for charing your experience!
Chalam, Thanks for the sentiments :] If there is a God, I don't think he would have made it THIS difficult to follow ONE principle that literally is intertwined with one's life.
Nelly, Thanks for the sympathy. And i totally understand that going back would DEFINITELY entail being involved with the religion again. My dad told me I'm "welcome into the house anytime as long as I'm willing to do things Jehovah's Way." I also understand going back is a defeat. But what can i do? If i can't handle it, then i can't handle it.
Cadellin, talk about stress lol.
1. I'm still in High School and unfortunately, our counselors are usually just for schedule changes and are not as much counselors as much as they are life-planners. I talk to one, but there's only so much she can do with limited knowledge of the religion.
2. i have read Crisis. Its a good book in regards to organizational flaws. However, my dad apparently has knowledge of the book, so I've been thinking maybe I'm giving too much credit to one book..
3. I HAVE!! :] and they definitely help.
4. I have told them that I still love them, that I love them as my parents and that wont change.
Notverylikely, unfortunately i don't have a year. Being my senior year in school, i don't have that much time to dillydally while i decide what im gonna do with my life.
Little Imp, I TOTALLY can empathize. Because my family was very highly regarded in our hall, and i being the son of an elder, when i stopped giving talks, stopped going in service regularly, grew my hair a little longer, so many people thought i was just the ugly duckling or something. i heard so much of people talking about me and i hated it.
PrimateDave, that would be the ideal situation. I wish my parents would bend at least a little bit in such a hard rule they have to follow (even better if they got out of the org altogether) but My dad made it clear i was only to call "every once in a while" just to let him know i was alive. that's it :/
Cook My socks, as you said you are most definitely entitled to your opinion. Might i ask you to google "what the bible does and doesn't say about homosexuality?" You'll find that most of what is in the bible regarding gays is not what God intended to be in there at all and that those mistranslations just helped further biases certain men had.
ProdigalSon, I found that very true and enlightening. I agree that intolerance in society will be gone in a few years (towards gays) and it's only till people figure out how to really interpret things will the majority's view change.
OUTLAAAAWWWW!!!! When lurking i always enjoyed your picture posts. and your silly dog. I gotta say its a pickup seeing it addressed to me xD funny joke.
Mouthy, Thank you for your words!!! I'll definitely look into that book. and no, iI'm not the type of person to just mess around for the heck of it. I don't think being gay is wrong, but I do think sleeping around whether one is heterosexual or not is wrong. I know people would judge me and I'm putting all of these things on a figurative scale. thanks again!!! :]