I always try not to judge you EE or other elders who post here while leading double lives. I've made a point of saying so on here more than once.
I couldn't do what you do, if I was hanging on in the WTBS for my family then I'd keep a very low profile, I couldn't subscribe to their hierarchical corrupt systems, I couldn't be a hypocrite, but.... I'm not you, I've not walked in your shoes for a month or even a day.
Once you start judging people adversely here though, for their beliefs and actions, then it kind of starts to be something that sticks in the throat, that you feel qualified to judge others here. Maybe it shouldnt. It just does.
Loz x