Betrayed
Anger
Used
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Betrayed
Anger
Used
Dizzy and confused at first. Then mad only for a short while. Then sad for the years wasted and for friends and family who I knew would not understand. Then determined to get out and get away. Then light and free.
Gutted. Then, relief and euphoria. Anger set in later and lasted for quite a few yrs.
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Happy and freeeee! I figured it out at a JC. They were such a**holes that I didn't want anything to do with a god who would choose them.
I had my family back, didn't have to worry about my non-JW family surviving Armageddon, could go back to school and do whatever I liked! I was worried that my daughter might grow up and want to be a JW, but that didn't happen either (the JW part, not the growing up part ). I am so lucky!
I went to an ex-JW friend's place of employment, and we rejoiced together. She said, "They're lost and 'way downstream." That says it.
Pissed.
So many of these read like variations on the "five stages of grief".
For my part, mostly anger, not for anything done to me personally, but to others. I asked myself, "why the hell has the pedo problem not been properly solved, yet?"
A possible answer came to me shortly after; "an authority figure(s) who stonewalls the proper solution to a given problem is often personally involved in said problem".
My anger passed fairly quickly; believe it or not, my otherwise devout JW parents instilled in me certain attitudes that actually helped accept TTATT and subsequently fade realtively easily.
Confused. Disillusioned. Lost.
embarrassed
searched a fix
found a fix
very happy
Anger and happiness. Angry that I've been duped and happiness that I no longer had to go to meetings and listen to bullshit.
guilt