Rejecting the wt god "jehovah" is, I think, the beginning of the end for those who didn't experience faith in God before the cult. The wt teaches heavily on that OT vengeful, punishing, terror of a deity. They're wrong. So in too many cases the wt is directly responsible for preparing minds to reject God --- the unfortunate legacy of the wt.
I've always believed. Atheists have told me that's because subconciously I was trained. That could be true, but our family went to church maybe 4 times during my entire childhood, mostly for weddings. I don't remember any training about God except by example - it just wasn't talked about. Maybe because one 'right' way wasn't pushed down my throat I was curious. By the time I chose to become(man, that's still hard for my pride) a jw, I'd already rejected all other religious sects. I was a push-over actually. It wasn't an informed choice for any of us that chose it, though.
It wasn't as hard for me to toss off wt doctrines after I found ttatt as it is for those who're born into it. They know nothing else and to reject the religion is to reject the only God they ever knew --- as much as one can know the constant threat of that god's wrath, shunning, isolation, depression and, eventually, death at Big A.
That god is not the true God shown to us by Yeshua. Some people have the experience of being 'born from above', which jws would mistake for "being anointed", but I think its just the common experience of all believers. Why some don't experience it and others do is beyond me. But if it happens you don't "get" faith, your faith is "assured". It has nothing to do with some mysterious/instantaneous enlightenment into all the 'truth' in the universe, it's about being convinced that God exists. period. At least it was for me.
I bordered on fundamentalism before, now I think the OT is mostly stories, and the victors wrote their own history. Maybe the reason evolutionists and believers don't find common-ground is because the fundamental view of Genesis is at odds with the evidence. Always follow the evidence, so I don't think the Genesis account is any more than a story of "God did it". To think that it's a literal minute-by-minute retelling is ridiculous. I get where atheists are coming from now and realize I have more thoughts in common with them than with most Christians, to whom I'm 'not a real Christian' because I don't believe what they do. But then I'm still percieved by (some)atheists to be mentally disadvantaged for the mere fact that I do believe. Maybe I'm an odd case, squeezed in the middle.
I believe what I believe and that's just how it is, like it or lump it, lol. I don't look for differences to argue about and I'm much more at peace. There's so much I don't know, or won't ever know. But I know God is real and I know Yeshua is real. That's all I need. I don't feel the need to prove it to anyone else, unless they ask, and then it's just what it is --- inexplicable and individual. I hardly expect my experience to be exactly the same as another's.
Doctrines and differences don't matter. Titles don't matter. We should just do whatever we can do to help each other. I don't blame God for famine and injustice on this planet - I blame people.
I know atheists who undoubtedly do more 'Christian works' than so-called Christians do! I'm with Ghandi on that one. God is real --- but (some)people still suck!
Hope you find peace, seraphim. watkins