Sister Barbara:
What did you expect? A pat in the back for speaking against Jehovah's organization and Jesus' annointed brothers? Don't get me wrong, I understand your struggle, but you have crossed way over the line. You have been mislead and you sincerely think that those that are helping do because they care for you. If they cared they would helping you with your spirituality by helping you get closer to Jehovah. Instead they will do anything in their power (or twisted words) to get you to leave Jehovah's sanctuary.
You are fighting the only person that ever really cared for you, and that is Jehovah. You are using all your resource and energy, not to punish the wrondoer (in this case a pedophile), but to speak against Jehovah's people. What you don't realize is the difficulty that the brothers in Bethel have in guiding 6 million of Jehovah's people worldwide.
They are doing their best to follow all Bible law and principles and at the same time protecting Jehovah's sheep. But you have decided to turn against that arrangement, similarly as how Miriam turned against Moses, her flesh brother. She might have been right in her critic of Moses, but it wasn't her place to speak against Jehovah's annointed servant. Do you honestly think that Jehovah has closed his eyes to the abuse of children? Of course not, he has a plan. But you as an imperfect human being, question his plan or solutions?