HI KATE , thanks fo reply and taking time to read my earlier post.
I have read some of your posts ,in fact i once commented that i thought you were sitting on the fence re belief in god.
probably because i sensed that you had issues with the bibles take on the xian god.
being that is the source of the xian god prompted me to ask the question,which god do you believe in.
Do you know? Is it a force (supenatural) who caused the existence of all we know. Does it exist because you
need it to be that way for a reason?
Although the belief may do you no discernible harm, not all harm is discernible as you may understand from my experience:....
I suppose you could say i did believe in god from childhood but not due to my own reasoning.
It was inculcated in me through religious education at school,church childrens study,vows of allegiance via church youth groups
and subsequently the JWs from eleven years old. So being taught by adults,teachers,ministers how could a young mind question
these influences, so although there seemed to be no discernible harm at the time the future was quite another story!
Yes i was baptised at thirteen ,i cant say i was totally pressured because i was quite the little witness and wanted
to do what jehovah wanted of me,although there was encouragement from my parents which i now realise
was the main reason ie to please them.My mother in later years did admit she influenced me more than she perhaps
should have.
As i grew older my own reasoning abilities were kicking in mostly because i was a bit of a rebel and wanted to live life as i saw
it best for me. Being a witness was proving to be a real drag. A couple of things happened about this time, my younger sister
was molested by a brother of so called good standing nothing much was done about it, my memory recalls that he was
talked to and that he was repentant .That got me thinking!!
Another thing was my own studies and interests into history,archaeology,origins of life primarily because i liked to read
encyclopedias ,books about dinosaurs and early man which all seemed to contradict the JW stuff via the bible so by my own reasoning
(at last) i was able to formulate real doubt about god,JWs and have never regretted it for a second.
To be free of all that NON...SENSE was liberating!
My decisions of course to this day had and still have consequences .Hey thats another story.
Best wishes to you.
