I have gone through several epiphanies in my lifetime. Each one was marked by deep reflection and uncertainty. Even so, it is a great thing to pause for deep reflection. I would advise you to take your time. Ask yourself what is really true and worthwhile?
It would be wrong of me to give you pat answers and short cut this time of reflection. As painful and as uncertain as it is, it is a rare treasure.
It is how you become wise and immune to charlatans.