For me, the WTBTS robbed me of the magic and wonder of life. They reduced this universe and our earth down to nearly nothing.
I would have to say that is/was true of me also. I am more aware now that I always had these "secret" ideas...
ideas about the spiritual nature of well........nature! Animals and so on. I have never liked the way their role is downplayed by Jws. Maybe it was too much fear of that talking snake that caused that? I dont know!
None of my ideaswere all that weird or special - just ideas that fell OUTSIDE the JW ideology. For example, I have never thought that Jehovah would destroy most people at Armageddon.
You learn early to keep this type of thing to yourself however.
So thanks for that link FlyingHighNow.