Tina, I'm glad you're here. Re-visiting the trauma is giving me control over my these things-it's gradually losing its power. For so long I was only seeing what I wanted to see. What I was able to live with. I was not really living at all, only existing. I was running. Not anymore. It's such a relief to be able to turn and face myself and not have to look away. I had forgotten what true happiness was. I'm learning. Shame took alot out of me too-crushed my spirit. I've recaptured the joy I hadn't realized I'd lost. Thanks Tina for responding to this thread. I hope to hear more from you. Hugs back at ya, Seven
TW, I'll email you soon. I saw you in chat this morning but by the time I noticed, you were gone. Sorry I missed you.