Wow! Once in a while, people really get down and share what it is for them. Those are the magical moments on a board like this, and I'm inspired and awed by that. Thank you everyone!
footprints,
Awesome comments. I can say no more than that.
Unc.
: I mean I don't just stick by Farkel when he's rotten to me, I kick his balls when he's nice and fluffy too
Don't you ever change. You are perfect just the way you are.
Danny,
: It took me at leat 5-10 year's, after leaving the cult, to recognize, how very judgemental I was towards everyone I met. The little dancing demons of how someone dressed, haircut, demeanor, in other words, I though I could size someone up pretty damn fast. We jw's prided ourselves in that arena.
Gawd yes. That is me you talking about, too. And I've been SO wrong and too often wrong, too. Stuff to work on for me.
: What rude awakening, when one realizes it is all a smoke screen.
Yes. It's just another diversion some of us use to hide our own demons. Make others wrong, and that way you won't have to face your own demons.
Let those who are lurking understand this: WatchtowerLife(tm) pervades the lives of many of us for years and years and years after we've left. It's not often obvious. It's subtle, but it is still there. It's a powerful, seductive religion. It's also a powerful, DEstructive religion, and for those of us (like me) who were born and raised in it, it's a hard demon to exorcise. Watchtowerism doesn't run me like it did, I don't blame it for my own stuff, overall. But my brain is not yet totally done with it and its insidious influences still pop out when I least expect it and when I least need it.
I'm at the point where I recognize the WatchtowerThink(tm) triggers and mostly, I'm able to deal with them. But not always.
The mental battle rages on and I'm determined to win.
Farkel
Farkel
