With all respect, I have to disagree with you. I did not leave the truth. I left an organization of men. I did not leave because I wanted to indulge in "physical pleasures. I left because I discovered through PERSONAL RESEARCH that what I was taught was not correct. I left because my conscience would not allow me to continue to profess belief in something I felt was false. I left because I was living a lie. The conscience that I was given told me that someone was playing with my mind and my God given free will. We were all created with free will- it was given to us for a reason.
Why do you beleive that you are wrong? Obviously you have doubts, otherwise you would not have stopped attending meetings. Do you beleive you are wrong because you have done thorough open minded personal research into the questions that you have and have discovered that you are in error, or are you drawing your conclusion based on everything you have been told regarding the evils of independent thinking and going against the organization, or because an elder is telling you that you should feel horrible for allowing yourself to question the teachings? Guilt is a horrible thing to use as a motivator, and extremely damaging when misapplied. I think that if you really read the bible, sans watchtower, you will find many instances where people questioned God himself and were not considered evil or rebellious becuase of it. Research for yourself with an OPEN mind. Try to put your fear of man aside long enough to do a thorough examination of the mountains of information available to you. If you can do open minded, thorough research, and still draw the conclusion that the witness way of life is for you and that your doubts are in error, then by all means go back - that is your decision and you will be employing the free will that God bestowed on you. Those on this forum are employing the same free will. The organization of men have caused a great deal of harm and pain to many on this forum, and that is not to be taken lightly. Many have lost family and friends, not because they are evil or wish to go out and live immoral lives, but because they simply disagreed with the teachings of an organization, not God, an organization. That is an important distinction.
Your opinion does matter, all of us matter. We are condidtioned to beleive that salvation is earned by meeting attendance and field service and never ever questioning what we are taught, when the bible clearly states that salvation is a gift. Gifts cannot be earned. I hope that you are able to find some peace and real answers to your questions.
