Thank you all so much for listening to me vent all these feelings about my Mom, I have really used this place as my own personal sounding board and I probably sound like a broken record. I really hope that somehow maybe someone who is thinking of ending it , just takes the time to stop and think before they go thru with it. I am almost 100% sure that the night my mom died, it was a kind of rash choice , that night. ALthough I am sure the thought had been on her mind off and on for years,,,,,it just probably all hit her in a few hours from my time estimates of when I talked to her and when I couldnt find her.
Sheila , I am glad that Thunder has such a wonderful wife, you are his rock I am sure, as he is yours. You two are very beautiful people inside and out and I can't imagine not getting to know you on this board. I thank God that yall are both here.
We tell these stories and show these pictures to make the subject of suicide not one of those taboo subjects that are hiden away ,never to be spoken. We tell our stories , so we can keep the memory of our lost loved ones alive, and that even thou they are gone, maybe in their own death, they can help someone to see how sad suicide really is and how much it hurts for so many years after they are gone.
Here is another pic of my mom and her favorite horse,,,,,,I love this picture , she looks so happy and we shared a love of horses......she was about 31 in this pic , she was only 35 when she died.