Hi Josh,
I had no idea when we were in chat the other night that you had had such a difficult time. Way to go for telling your story!
I'm not gay, but there are commonalities between us. When I was about 19 or so the Society's idiotic admonishments convinced me to confess my sin of masturbation to elders on a number of occasions. They were always kind and understanding. One even told me that 95% of men admit to masturbation and the other 5% are liars. At the other end of the spectrum, one told me that he was sure that the Society would soon make masturbation a disfellowshipping offense. They all suggested intense prayer and so forth. I prayed and prayed and prayed. No answers. I felt quite depressed for several years. Finally I realized, in a vague, fuzzy sort of way, that I had never gotten an answer to a prayer, and that either no one was up there listening, or that I wasn't worthy. But the latter didn't set right, since it went against everything I had been taught about "the hearer of prayer", and the former didn't make sense either. Gradually I just quit thinking about prayer, but rarely ever tried it again. I now realize that there really is nobody up there, and that people who think they get answers to prayers are engaging in massive self-deception.
You should not have put Northern Girl's private message out for public inspection without her permission. That's a gross violation of privacy and one of the greatest "sins" you can commit on the Net. You should have simply summarized her silly comments.
As for you, Northern Girl, I suspect you're a classic troll, but I can't prove it. Your comments are generally so stereotypically JW-braindead that I can hardly believe they come from a sincere JW -- even they are not that far gone. You even said that the Governing Body is inspired -- something that no real JW would ever admit. My comments here will assume that you're not a mere troll
JWs rely for morality on the writings of 4000-year-old nomadic tribesmen who knew nothing of the issues of modern life. They did not know that humans are sometimes born with homosexual leanings, and that these leanings are a perfectly normal thing. They are normal because people are born with them, and therefore, your postulated creator-god must have created these leanings. Such leanings are far too complicated to have evolved by themselves in the short time since Adam and Eve supposedly lost "perfection" and mankind began to deteriorate. Such facts strongly show that "Biblical morality" is not based on fact, but on a 4000-year-old culture that is irrelevant in today's world. Such Biblical morality teaches that women are mere items of property, which illustrates how out of touch it is.
So Josh, as you've already learned quite well for yourself, you'll get no sympathy from self-righteous nincompoops who base their lives on 4000-year-old foolishness.
AlanF