if this is for real (as you say it is) my wish for you is that you would open up that mind of yours and put in some legitimate data. my guess is that this attitude has robbed you of the chance of developing a loving, true, well-rounded, give and take, equal relationship with some wonderful, and yes, beautiful woman.
by the way, what is your idea of a "l0"? might it be something like a made-up barbie type with breast implants wearing stilts and a miniskirt?