Thanks for the welcome...
I thought I was alone ... it's a comfort to know that I am not!
I have a question....Those of you who have been where I am at the moment,,, do you still have a 'relationship' with Jehovah? Or does leaving the organisation sever the relationship with Jehovah. And if it does how do you fill your spiritual needs now?
For me the two are inextricably (is that how you spell it?) linked. I have never worshipped God in any other way. And besides... if Jehovah is the kind of Creator and Father that I believe that he is... surely he would understand that I have tried to worship Him in this way with a pure motive... You can't be condemned for that can you? Let's say, for the sake of argument that the stuff that the WT Society has taught me for the past 30 odd years is not accurate... surely Jehovah would make allowances for that... Wouldn't he?
I think that the biggest problem that we have in The Truth is that we are frightened of speaking our minds.. You know... telling it as it really is... Like the love that we are supposed to have amongst us.... I see it only rarely... and yet we wax lyrical about it all the time.. Like the meetiings being 'brilliant' when in reality they're not anymore. Or is it me that has become cynical?
Its a bit like the story of the Kings new clothes... Everybody knows that he's naked but nobody dares to say anything...
I long to go to the meetings and feel energised like a I used to do years ago when my kids were young... but they ( the meetings not my kids!!) have become so boring and monotonous. I truely feel that I could spend my time in much more productive way... And then I start to beat myself up and think that it must be my fault... I must have a weak faith or something.T
The thing is I REALLY want to be there.. I REALLY want to be a part of the people who worship God with Spirit & Truth.. I REALLY need to sort this out...in my head... somehow!!
Questions, questions... So many questions...
Anyway... I'm rambling a bit now. I had better close.
Kagloo