First of all, you are not alone! I found the link:
http://groups.msn.com/GayexJehovahsWitnesses
Does god love me?
I am moved by your plea for love and understanding. And I am an imperfect human reading impersonal words. Trust me, if God exists, He is moved by your deep yearnings, and yearns to comfort you in return. Matthew 9:11-12.
I know that the moment my family finds out about me: I?m out the door, so will god be there for me?
We learn about our Father?s love by observing our natural father?s affection. If we live in fear of losing our natural father, it is understandable that you fear that God will reject as well. The God I read in the bible, though, is always ready to embrace, never reject. Matthew 7:7-11
They all say they are the right one, but how does someone know?
The WT teaches that you must be saved through an organization. So of course, an exiting JW naturally wants to know, if the WT is the wrong organization, which is the right one? Perhaps salvation is not through an organization, but a personal relationship with God.
LOLOL Acting coach? Probably to survive the next few years until you get out on your own!