by mouthy 606 Replies latest jw experiences
Hi Ian,
"Being on your own" is the constant and ultimate threat of any society to any individual. A threat we have to brave again and again, in order to really be (whatever we are) to others.
This "courage to be" (in the words of the Christian theologian Paul Tillich) is something I always feel in you and your posts, and certainly the most precious to all who are lucky enough to know you.
Always thinking of you,
Didier
"Being on your own" is the constant and ultimate threat of any society to any individual. A threat we have to brave again and again, in order to really be (whatever we are) to others.This "courage to be" (in the words of the Christian theologian Paul Tillich) is something I always feel in you and your posts, and certainly the most precious to all who are lucky enough to know you.
I agree. Sometimes being truly on your own means being alone. It's always something I've admired about you Ian...that courage to "be" on your own terms. A lesson that all of us escaping from a cult must eventually face. Might as well get comfortable with yourself, right? You're the only companion that will be the constant in your life. (I say that as a broad statement for all of us.) John Mayer, one of my favorite musicians, has some song lyrics:
everybody's just a stranger
but that's the danger in
going my own way
i guess it's a price i have to pay
It's a price I've paid and I'm the better for it. I have slowly learned that being alone and being lonely are two different things. I certainly hope Ian that you don't feel lonely. You have such a wonderful family here that truly does love you. We may not talk to you everyday or have supper with you on Sundays, but it's family in the truest sense of the word. We love you no matter what you decide regarding your health. We just want you happy and healthy and with us as long as possible. Stay true to yourself. THAT'S what makes me happy!
XOXOXOXO,
Andi
How are you doing, this week, Ian?
You've been on my heart a lot.
(((( Ian ))) Been on vacation, but I thought about you often, especially when I had quiet moments on the beach in the early morning, watching the sun come up, and feeling its warmth, knowing that this sunrise was your sunset, and praying it's rays felt as glorious to you, as they did to me at that moment.
Love David
Hope today is a good day!
Didier, Andi, Ross, David and Kelly,
Thank you for your lovely posts. Didier, I am deeply touched by your comments.
This week has been a good one overall. I saw my new homeopath, Ann Saunders R.S. Hom., last Wednesday and she is very encouraging - far moreso than my doctors!
I am now taking her homeopathic remedies and I have to telephone her on Monday to let her know what's happening. I have been treated like a human being and I only wish the doctors would do likewise. They could learn a lot from Ann Saunders. She is compassionate and patient and a very willing listener.
I am eating 80% raw food and 20% cooked (entirely vegan), plus drinking pure organic juices (not concentrates) and any juices we juice ourselves - not to mention litres of bottled spring water. I had reflexology last Thursday (nearly sent me to sleep) and have a further 3 sessions to go. Ross, I've also found a Tai Chi class - though it isn't open until September
Every day is a bonus. Today was special because my Buddhist friend, Mike, came round again and had me drooling with his talk. When I'm in his presence death means nothing. He explains everything so clearly and makes me feel so upbeat! He was here for around 4 hours, but it seemed like 4 minutes!! Great friend, great conversation!!!
This thread has become something of a VERY IMPORTANT diary for me. Thanks again, ((((((Grace)))))) While I write down everything that happens and how I feel I am profoundly grateful for all your wonderful posts. Your love emanates through my computer screen and I also know many of you are praying for me. I am deeply touched and sooooooo appreciative of such prayers and good wishes.
It's great to be alive and my tumour and I are helping each other get better. We talk to each other every day and we both realise that it's important to help each other out. I am responsible for my tumour manifesting itself in the first place as it is a condition brought about through my character. I was stressed as a youngster, stressed as a young man and stressed as a JW. Once I left the JWs and was able to relax for the first time, my tumour appeared. I have taken note on what it all means and have learnt a great deal from the situation. THAT is the most important part of my condition. I accept it and have to get on with it.
Some of you may be surprised at my reasoning and I fully understand that. However, I KNOW who I am. I don't expect most of you to suffer such an affliction but one really must look inwards and take stock of one's situation. In my case, I have absolutely no doubt my conditioning is to blame. I responded to that conditioning in a way that resulted in living with constant stress. I also didn't eat a healthy enough diet. Now, I am careful to avoid ALL stress as far as possible AND I eat wisely.
OK, let's look at the worst scenario. If it happens I at least have Mike's words to fall back on. To die is to be set free. There's always the possibility of rebirth, of course, but surrounding myself with like-minded people - something I strongly believe my karma has led me to - is readying me for a higher birth. If I am cured I have the bonus of attempting to fulfil my wish to help others. I now know what my life is meant for.
Thanks for reading.
Love,
Ian
Ian if you believe the conditioning caused your illness i am sure it did. Living under a controlling cults thumb does take it's toll. It sounds like you are eating and living like people should, your mind sounds clearer then ever before. Ian , you will out live us and be a lot healthier then us. I know you will beat this
Ian:
Ross, I've also found a Tai Chi class - though it isn't open until September
I have the strongest of suspicions that you'll be around for that
Good to hear you so upbeat, today.
Glad to hear how your handling this.Its awesome and you truley inspire me Ian.
With friendship love,
Heather
(((((Ian)))))
You truly ARE a remarkable person!
I am in awe of your calmness and your overall attitude despite the obvious pain and suffering you're experiencing. By your writings here, you have done so much in teachings others, on many levels. I wish I could think of a different, more meaningful word than "remarkable" to describe you.
You mentioned how you talk to your tumor? I think the first thing that *I* would say to it----that now it's had it's day in the sun and commanded all the attention that it had, it could now just shrink up and go away!!!! It has taught you the lesson it came to teach---so BEGONE ALREADY! (I'd be safe in saying that many of us here would be MORE than happy to come by and give that tumor a good stern "talking to " , but you would have to leave the room because WE would be stressed out---LOL)!
Be well, dear one, and know you are very much loved and appreciated..........
hugs always,
Annie
