I don't know. I think you may yet lurk around. I mean of course you have heard all about the dangers of the internet from the publications and from the platform, no, something like curiosity must have gotten the better of you to bring you here.
Of course you will find witness websites and witness discussion boards that are all witness only, but you will find there the same uninteresting mush spooned out at the increasingly dumbed down meetings and publications. Methinks more adventure lies here, where you are actually allowed to discuss your beliefs openly, as you have been afforded that opportunity here. We have all had turns discussing what you have posted with you and I'm sure you have noticed that not everyone here is of like mind. Again, that is using your god given thinking ability, something you may think you are able to do within the sphere of the organization, but sadly, you will find that true freedom of thought is curtailed there. Not an accusation, just an observation.
Not everyone here is an athiest, not everyone here is agnostic, the difference here is that you are ALLOWED to be if you want to and we are perfectly happy in discussing one anothers beliefs. Sometimes the conversation is heated, and doesn't even center on religion, but nonetheless what we have here is a group of people from all walks of life who can coexist and can also be of their own mind. Its the way humanity is supposed to be, and the way, if you believe in a creator, we were created. So don't be afraid to use your brain, to use what God gave you, we can accept it, we can accept your beliefs and even discuss them with you if you wish.
You mentioned the Catholic Church, how foolish it would be for one to leave the Witness religion and join the Catholics. While I would not debate you in that statement, what I must ask is why you think that the witnesses are better than the Catholics, or the Baptists or the Hindus or Buddhists for that matter. But even taking just christian religions into account, why the Witnesses? And why must you hold so firmly to their doctrines? Have you done an investigation as to whether the Witness organization is any better than say the Catholics in leading the worshiper down the true path to God? You may think that you are hedging your bets with God in order to do "what you think is right" in order to gain the reward at some point in the future, but is this a wise way to lead your life?
The reason I bring it up is because how one lives their life is the most important decision one makes. Certainly you remember when you were a child, didn't that seem like it was just yesterday? Every day we live longer and use up more of this gift of life that we were given. The only thing that we are ABSOLUTELY SURE of, is that everyone who has ever lived has died. It doesn't matter how long, some die young, others live into their 100's, but every man woman and child ever born on this planet has died. All of us are mortal and that is something we all have to face. You obviously put faith in the bible and believe that God provides salvation for humans from this fate. Your belief in this is great and perfectly fine and normal, but what I would say to you is that an organization is hijacking this belief and putting you in shackles. If you believe in the Jesus of the bible then it is something that he would never have envisioned for the people that listened to his message to be a part of. The watchtower organization is using your faith in the bible and substituting itself for God. They are using your faith. There is such a thing as christian freedom, perhaps the organization that you belong to is keeping you from living the life that God intended you to live.
All I am saying is that you owe it to yourself to find out, you owe it to yourself to do an investigation and see whether or not you are a follower of men or a follower of God, if following God is what you want to do with your life. Jesus taught that he was the mediator between God and man, not an organization.