this morning my dad got into "military-mode" again ....... It all ended with him saying: "well then, go find yourself another home!"
Yep, It happened to me too, just like that. I actually DID live somewhere else after numerous verbal and fist fights, usually just before meetings! Living outside my crazy home was the best and most peaceful time of my teens. What your realizing is the "Big Stick" the Society teaches JW's to swing when people do not fall in line. And guess what, it will likely never get better. Anyone in the 'Troof' is likely to shun you from here on out if you leave. Sorry, but that is the damage this religion causes. You need to start developing true friends that won't do this.
You decision is not about what is "The Truth". It is whether or not you have the desire and courage to direct your own life course and beliefs. If you come to the conclusion that only followers of a doomsday publishing company deserve to be spared from a global slaughter - fine. If you come to the conclusion that "no one knows for sure and God isn't talking" - fine.
You are still young and the desire for acceptance is strong - especially from your family. Sooner or later you will come to the conclusion that YOU direct your life. Your friends aren't conditional. And it's your right to choose what's right for you since you will be the one that deals with the consequences. You are going to be confronted with all the JW tactics - fear, guilt and family blackmail. Get ready.
Some questions to ask yourself:
Why is the Bible like every other ancient religious book; Tales of heroic people, fantastic events and displays magical powers in places long ago, far, far away, that for some peculiar reason does not happen at all in real life today?
Why was Noah's ARK too small to even hold one pair of each type of insect on Earth?
If Jehovah will judge everyone based on how the react to the "Issue of universal soveriegnty" then why doesn't he openly explain this issue in the Bible? Why did Jesus, or the Apostles never mention this most important "Issue"? Compare this to the entire book of Hebrews where the Christian meaning of the Law covenant is thoroughly explained over many chapters.
When Cornelius, the Army officer asked what he needed to do to be saved, why didn't Jesus tell the him to quit his position in the Army?
Moses was Jehovah's "Channel of communication" that the WTS now also claims to be. He was very reliable and never got it wrong or confused until.... One day in the wilderness the Israelites were in need of water. Moses took his staff and smacked it on a rock and said "Is it from this rock that I shall give you water?" Because he screwed up and said "I" instead of "Jehovah", he was punished. He was told he would not lead the Israelites into the "Promised Land". He died in the wilderness for just screwing up on ONE WORD of direction from Jehovah. Now, just imagine if Moses told the Israelites they would only have to wander the wilderness for 14 years, then revise that to 25 years, then revise that to 75 years and finally say he really can't say for sure? Imagine if Moses said Golden Calves were OK, then later say, now they are not. Imagine if Moses secretly made an allience with the Eygptians? Do you really think Jehovah would still be OK with these COLLOSAL divine miscommunications? Why would Jehovah insist on using a group that has proved time and again to be an unreliable source for dispensing direction from Jehovah and then kill all humans for failing to listen to them? Would you do that?
