When I don't go, I don't have to take pills, and I don't feel like killing myself.
I went through a multi-year depression. The less I was involved with meetings, the better I felt.
The night I was kicked out was horrible.
The day after, overwhelming relief.
And despite all of this, I still feel a spiritual need of sorts. I like what the Bible teaches as far as morality, love, kindness, praying, etc.
My favourite verse is Mt. 5:3 Philips "Happy are those who know their need for God."
I do believe in a Creator.
I do believe that the Universe was created by the greatest mathematical mind conceivable (actually inconceivable).
How to put everything together - who knows?
But, Matt. 22:37-39 is a good start.
The post about the Good Samaritan.
Was it looking down at this unconscious wretch, and stuffing a tract in his pocket, and saying: "Hey, if you survive, read this. If you accept the way we teach the Bible, then God will take of you"?