yeah.
so i told my mother i have been dating stephanie or close to year.... she flipped.
i know that she wouldn't agree with it but now she won't call me at all or anything.. she made me feel so guilty and dirty but i shouldn't.... whatever.. i am confused.. love ya bunches,.
yeah
so i told my mother i have been dating stephanie or close to year...
she flipped. i know that she wouldn't agree with it but now she won't call me at all or anything.
she made me feel so guilty and dirty but i shouldn't...
whatever.
i am confused.
love ya bunches,
Katie
hey guys it's katie.. for those people who do not know me, i am an inactive lesbian 18 year old jw, who was df'd & reinstated.
well, i don't consider myself a lesbian- i am just a female dating another female.
call me what you will.. ok- so anyways the other night i was sad and lonely.
thank you all for your wonderful replies!
now if only you were here to help me in person, i would be even better.
my girl and i are on a "break" (aka- break up)
i am in the pit, you know sleeping all day and laying around- not eating.
i tried to go out last night- but i only felt worse.
so last night i called some j dub friends of mine that are cool.
they didn't ask me about anything relating to the meetings or my being inactive. we just talked about jobs, and bills and tv. it was nice.
i miss that. they want me to move up there (they live in oregon and i live in california) but then i would have to give up my freedom, which i enjoy so much now.
i don't think i will, but there's always this place in the back of my head...
has anyone gone back after leaving for a long time?
how were you treated? did you feel better or worse????????????
love ya bunches,
Katie
hey guys it's katie.. for those people who do not know me, i am an inactive lesbian 18 year old jw, who was df'd & reinstated.
well, i don't consider myself a lesbian- i am just a female dating another female.
call me what you will.. ok- so anyways the other night i was sad and lonely.
hey guys it's katie.
for those people who do not know me, i am an inactive lesbian 18 year old jw, who was df'd & reinstated. well, i don't consider myself a lesbian- i am just a female dating another female. call me what you will.
ok- so anyways the other night i was sad and lonely. i missed all my jw friends. i wanted the closeness that the congregation provided. most of all i missed my family. i wanted my mom to hug me and be proud of me.
i wanted to be the popular "spiritual" pioneer type who is always hanging out with her friends. all you ex j dubs know what type i am talking about. the one girl who is up on the platform at the assemblies and meetings. who is always prepared for the meetings. the one girl everyone wants to go out in service with. maybe she's the po's daughter, but the point is she is perfect and happy. and she gets married to the ministeral servant with the perfect kingdom hall wedding, everyone there. and she is clean til her wedding night and everything in life goes good for her.
nothing bad happens to her or her life and she has her kids and they are perfect too. see, she is oblivious to everything so she is in her "spiritual bubble" all she worries about is the quick builds and district assemblies.
i wanted to be that girl the other night. i cried because i am so far from that. maybe it's becuase that has been my whole life. i fought so hard against it because the grass seemed so green on the other side. it's been almost a year since i have had to go to a meeting. now i can do what i want and i am still not happy. :(
what is wrong with me? i want to get married so bad and have kids. i miss the assemblies and the people.
so that is that. what to do?
love ya bunches,
Katie
hey .
this is katie.
i have to move out of where i am living by the end of march.
HEY
HI
THIS IS KATIE. I HAVE TO MOVE OUT OF WHERE I AM LIVING BY THE END OF MARCH. I CAN NOT MOVE BACK INTO MY PARENTS HOUSE UNLESS I AM A GOOD JEHOVAH'S WITNESS AND GO TO ALL THE MEETINGS. SINCE I HATE ALL WITNESSES, I WOULD RATHER KILL MYSELF THEN DO THAT.
I AM LOOKING FOR A ROOM TO REANT IN CALIFORNIA- SACRAMENTO. FOLSOM, FAIR OAKS, ORANGEVALE AREA- SO I CAN BE NEAR TO MY JOB. I CAN ONLY AFFORD $250 A MONTH- THAT'S INCLUDING EVERYTHING. I AM A CLEAN PERSON, I DON'T DO DRUGS, DRINK, OR SMOKE. I AM NOT SLUTTY, I AM DATING A GIRL THOUGH. I AM A FUN PERSON AND I HAVE A KAREOKE MACHINE THAT THE WORDS COME ON THE SCREEN. I DON'T HAVE ANY PETS AND I JUST NEED A ROOM AND A BATHROOM. YOU CAN EMAIL ME AT: [email protected] OR [email protected]
THANKS
KATIE
love ya bunches,
Katie
merry christmas to all you ex jw's!.
today was my first christmas.
i had so much fun.
Merry Christmas to all you ex jw's!
today was my first christmas. i had so much fun. i spent it with stephanie and her family. her grandma got me a kareoke machine! sweet!
i got stephanie a gameboy advance.
but it was just nice to talk to everyone and have a nice time. i know alot of you haven't seen me in here for awhile, that's because stephanie was sick. she has mono. she is still recovering. i have been taking care of her so i have had no time for the computer. that post on the santa on the jw site was from her, she thinks its funy that jw's don't celebrate it but it's on the web site. i told her this is an EX JW site! :)
well merry christmas to all my friends. i don't see any of you in the chat room anymore as much as i used to. there is a bunch of new names i see. i am doing good, for all of you who were wondering!
have a goodnight!
ps. i love my new job! at the grocery store!
love ya bunches,
Katie
i thought jw's weren't supposed to deal with anything christmasy.
so why is there a santa claus poppin up at the top of the site?
with snow & holly in addition?
i thought jw's weren't supposed to deal with anything Christmasy. so why is there a santa claus poppin up at the top of the site? with snow & holly in addition? the jw's are going soft.
love ya bunches,
Katie
to the people who read this:.
my friend told me to come to this forum and go into the chat room.
when i went into the chat room and mentioned her, some of you knew who she was.
hey girlie!
glad you came!
hope to see ya in the chat!
suprised you posted, but in a good way!
love you!!!!!! hope you like it here! we are like one big family!
love & more love,
katie
hello all.. i really do love to post here.
i love getting responses more than anything.
well, my mom pissed me off today.
Hello all.
i really do love to post here. i love getting responses more than anything. :)
well, my mom pissed me off today. that's nothing new.
i see jw's all over town lately. they know i no longer attend meetings and it's akward. they see me with my "worldly" friends, though i don't see my friends that way. like my girlfriend, she just is who she is. she's not bad to me. and my parents are training my little brother and sister to be that way, and that makes me sad.
but the funny thing is, i think i will always have jehovah witness ways inside me forever. like, some things are still "bad" to me. and i can't sing "hapy birthday" to people. i still talk about the people and the meetings, even though i am no longer apart of their "organization". little things like that. it scares me. i don't want to be jehovahs witness! or act like them or think like them.
but, whatever. i wish i could have been a cheerleader or played on sport teams or went to college like normal people. i have always been the "weird girl"
thats me
katie=
nerd
whatever.
so you guys like my picture?
it's cool having it on here
also i am a junior member now instead of a newbie- can't wait to be a master member like naeblis or lilacs!
love ya'll
love ya bunches,
Katie
so yeah.
it's been a long time since my last post.
those of you that don't go into the chat probably think i have disappeared from this site.
just wanted to say hi again.
love katie
so i hear it's better to post in here because more people will read it in here.
well, last time i posted in here it was never read and got lost because so many people post in here.. oh well, here it goes:.
today is a good day because my girlfriend comes home from south dakota.
i am female isp. ;) and you?
lots of love,
katie
