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  $$ Get your ROKU on! $$

  by pixel in

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  2. beliefs

  to all congregations in the united states branch territory.

  re: discount on roku devices.

  dear brothers:.

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  Cool, I'm all for saving $20. We're about ready to upgrade our boxes. Thanks!
  
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  Ros

  by Gorbatchov in

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  today i read at the xjw.com forum that ros died.. since the start of my internet connexion in 1997 i remember the topics of ros.. ros, thanks for sharing your thoughts.

  you helped me getting ttatt.

  i pray for you and your relatives.. gorbatchov.

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  Ros was there in the early H20 days. I'm grateful to her reaching out to me privately during the time of my tumultuous early fade 15 years ago.

  I made up an email address for one of her groups that had my current age embedded in it: 26. I'm 41 now and that unique, life-changing experience will forever live through me. I still use that address.

  The supportive network Ros quietly created safely caught some of us plunging into the dark nethers on learning TTATT. It was a waystation that helped me catch my breath and for the first time ever (before JWD existed), honestly dialog with others about JW issues.

  Ros, from the bottom of my heart I thank you for everything you've facilitated for those of us stumbling in the dark and for the deep grounding and level-headedness you've incessantly modeled. Well done.

  With sadness on learning you left us,

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  JGnat Says Hi

  by jgnat in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  i have been wandering around the board for a while now, and have decided it is time to contribute a bit of my history.

  i have described my involvement with the witnesses as being from the outside looking in.

  my sweet honey has been trying for two years to get reinstated.

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  JGnat,

  What I appreciate about the gift of writing is, that once our words, stories, experiences, love, joy, and humor is put down in a shareable format, it can be enjoyed eternally.

  That this thread was started over 10 years ago to chronicle a beautifully creative life (yours) and is here today for me to find it for the first time is fantastic.

  I have read up to "Not Over Yet" and just felt drawn to respond. I am so glad you shared this, your gift with words, and your indelible presence.

  You have a perspective on marriage to a JW that helps me immensely when I read it. All I can do is smile and be grateful that I'm not alone.
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  I am miserable...am I crazy?

  by Cagefighter in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  as a born in jw my outlet was always music.

  my parents let me do piano lessons (from another sister) and when i was 14 i lobbied hard enough for a guitar.

  i formed a decent punk/emo type in high school behind my parents back.

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  Cagefighter,

  Lots of good, sage words here.

  I hear you.

  I am a creative soul who has walked many soul-crushing paths to sustain myself. But I must have an outlet for my creativity or I will die. There is no reason to be here if I cannot do what I was made to do.

  And I do it. And I have a day-job. It took 25 years for me to get the day job that incorporates a place for that essential creative part of me to find fulfillment.

  We are made to express ourselves creatively. Your longing for music calls you. Follow that. It doesn't have to be all or nothing. Satisfy that urge to create. To be in the music scene. Shut off all the other "voices" in your life telling you to do otherwise. This isn't about your parents. Or anyone else you have/tried to/want to please. It's about you. "I am miserable...am I crazy" is you telling you what you really want.

  Stay away from the drugs. Listen to the music that wants to be played through you. Get the tools you need and just do that. Get the guitar you love. Spend time with it each day. Even just 5 minutes looking at it and thinking about how much joy it brings you. Let it in.

  Focus on you and the music. Let you ego go out of this one, the other musicians, the cred, building a reputation.

  Fit that into your life while your day job supports the passion.

  Little by little it will lead you where you need to go and you will know what to do with the rest. Maybe you sell your business. Maybe you keep it. Either way, play. Express. Nurture your creativity. Do what you love. And love what you do.

  Small steps. Just this moment. Breathe.

  I'm rooting for you. So is everyone else in this thread.

  Hugs, alias
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  My decision about "family shunning"

  by Gojira_101 in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  since i've been off work this week because of spring break, i've really been missing my grandma.

  when i have left wt (i'm fading and april will be 6 months) and i told her about january, she has been shunning me.

  i told myself "i will respect her wishes/decision..etc" this morning i woke up and said "to hell with shunning!

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  I'm done with WTBT$ dictating all of our lives and even though they still are dictating my grandma, I'm going to be the one to show love!

  You go, girl!
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  Yet another "Shunning is good for you, honest!" quote in the June 15th 2013 Watchtower

  by cedars in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  hi folks.

  that's right, the new june 15th 2013 study edition is out now on this link.... http://download.jw.org/files/media_magazines/28/w_e_20130615.pdf.

  the following quote caught my eye, from the final study article on page 28.... .

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  This practice is unloving, dehumanizing, and sad on so many levels.

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  Shunning is good for you!

  by 00DAD in

  1. social
  2. humour

  yes shunning is good for you!

  i did not understand this before, but i know it now.

  sometimes when i'm feeling a little down-in-the-dumps, a little depressed, i go outside for a little fresh air and some shun-shine.

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  Very creative! See the shunflower in my profile pic?

  Raysing,

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  A keyboard confessional...

  by nibbled in

  1. watchtower
  2. bible

  you guys don't know me, i'm new here.

  i'm typing on an iphone (pardon any random weird iphone auto-spell corrections) and could walk home to get to my laptop but i might lose the courage to post what comes to my heart to share right now.

  worse and more likely, i'll simply not be able to express what i felt right now... if i wait until i have a proper keyboard.

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  Hi Nibbled (love that name),

  I don't post here much these days, but I read your post and wanted to respond. I've sent you a PM.

  Above all, I want you to know that you're heard, and you validate much of what we with our shared JW history are experiencing in our inner lives, no matter what we may look like on the outside to others.

  And I have to give you props for typing that amazingly long post on an iPhone!

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  Do you come here seeking?

  by alias in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  i'm just curious at how many others might spend time on this website hoping to make sense of it all, despite being brought up or converted to jw after leaving.

  i can't seem to fill the hole of my existential crisis after fading out.

  the spectrum of atheism to beliving still doesn't fill the gap.

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  Thanks again to those of you who've responded. Once in a while I have a meltdown in and around all the BIG QUESTIONS and have many active JWs still in my life due to family and marriage who cannot support this side of my life. FWIW, the metaphorical knot has kept me from slipping too far down and this group on the board is the only who can truly relate to the JW experience . . .

  I know seeking is multi-faceted and cannot be satisfied only in the virtual world. But it is because of my participation here, most often in listening mode, between the extremes and only slightly variant shades of grey, that I have learned the greatest deal about people, worldviews, and possibilities. For all of that, and to everyone who cares, thank you.

  And the beat goes on...

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  Not Sure What I Believe In Anymore

  by nuthouse escapee in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  inside my head is a tangled ball of wool when it comes to what i believe.

  i have days where i believe in a creator and other days when i don't.

  then there are times when i refer to this as believing in 'something' but what exactly this something is, i have no idea.

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  Is it just me or does anyone experience this kind of no man's land?

  All the time.