Liza, I congratulate you for 'looking before you leap'.
Remember the TV commercial about the 'Roach Motels' ? "...they check-in, but, can never check-out ?" THAT is what happens when you check-in at the Kingdom Hall. Although there are thousands and thousands of ex-JW's here...almost all of us have paid a high price escaping from this very high-control religion.
I escaped and now have a very peaceful satisfying life -- except for the fact all of my grown children and my other JW relatives shun me, because I left. I am not disfellowshipped, I'm just AWOL from the Kingdom Motel.
-During a convention when I was about eight years old, I heard about a brother whose mother was sick in the hospital. He and his wife prayed to Jehovah God, and later on his mother got better. Is this a miracle? If so then the congregation has stated before that miracles would no longer happen and any such "miracles" are works of demons and Satan to misguide people from the truth. But Jehovah may have just given his mother the strength to get better.
There was no miracle for my JW mother whose belief in the Governing Body's dishonest blood transfusion doctrine killed her. That deadly belief is entirely based on "not eating blood", even tho' no "eating" nor ANY kind of digestion takes place during a transfusion. Please research this like you life depends on it -- because it does !
This deadly belief literally murdered my Mom. It will be expected & demanded of you, your children and your mother, too.
Your mother has already left the witnesses one time before, right ? What happens if YOU leave or she leaves again and you stay ? Teach your children this hateful religion and you (or them) may be required to treat the other...as a dead person. I promise you, I rue the day I was baptised and the 35 years I spent as a Jehovah's Witness.
Compare THAT "Love" with normal people of other religions or even atheists, before you become surgically attached to the Watchtower. The Watchtower destroys families.
I wish you success !
Rabbit