thanks win and ran for your lovely answers. The truth is, I'm not short of friends at all. Afer being DF, I took up full time education (even at my age) and have a group of about 30 friends who are absolutely cool. I think what I meant was, I was hoping to find people just like me. (normal people, no maybe strange er anyway... lol) Just people you can say a joke to like, "are you working on repetition for emphasis?" and they know where you're coming from.
I am just thinking these boards haven't given me all that I expected (I know I'm expecting a lot).
I don't want to give the impression that the internet hasn't given me ANYTHING. I've really let it all out; I never used to mention my jw past to my friends and now I just can't seem to shut up about it. They must be sick of me prattling on about it, it's been like letting a cork go. That is one good thing.
But, where do I go from here? I can't keep posting messages and reading posts, and getting wound up about how evil the "society" is, can I?
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I'm not sure if this is helping me
by ballistic ini posted another comment about how angry i'm getting with the organisation.
the thing is, it is this and other message boards that are making me feel this way.
this is bad.
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The Deepest, Darkest, Dirtiest Secret of WTS
by metatron indeep, dark secrets.. horrible, ugly things that dwell in shadows.. things no one speaks about.
topics that are avoided.. in some groups, it might be a murder, or an act of incest.. but with the watchtower, of all the dark secrets hidden from view,.
there is one uglier and more horrible than any other by far.. it is this:.
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just signing in as someone with a dead father due to the no blood policy.
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I'm not sure if this is helping me
by ballistic ini posted another comment about how angry i'm getting with the organisation.
the thing is, it is this and other message boards that are making me feel this way.
this is bad.
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I posted another comment about how angry I'm getting with the organisation. The thing is, it is this and other message boards that are making me feel this way. This is bad. I need to move on and look to the future, not back at the past. I think I needed to meet people who have been through what I have, and yes, some of you have... but I haven't met anyone in my town I could go for a beer with and most of you are in America, let alone my own town.
I've also had one or two negative experiences here in the chat room and alike. It hasn't put me off but I'm just re-evaluating the net value of this whole experience.
I've had several emails from some of you who want to take direct violent action against the org in response to my posts about how angry I feel. But again, I'm not up for that, because that too, is not letting go of the past and I need to move on. Does anyone know what I mean? -
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Jehovah's Witnesses and arguing...
by Abaddon inone thing i have noticed, both in my own reportoire of personal habits and in those of others posting on xjw boards, is the tendency to argue.. i contrast this to a few other boards i've frequented on a variety of topics.
obviously there are disagreements, but xdub boards can get really crazy at times.. there is this tendancy for xjw's to argue like rabid dogs; hell, it's not just the x's who do it, current jw's are just as bad.. this is over and above the normal 'spit on the mat and call the cat a bastard' atmosphere that often prevails on discussion boards (although if you ever want to see a really polite board i suggest you go to a lifestyle bdsmer's board!!)..
are we all psychos?.
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thanks mrmoe, I know it wasn't you. Just incomprehensible isn't it.
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Another nasty misquotation
by RunningMan inon tuesday, my wife had a talk in the ministry school.
the reasoning book and was on the subject of evolution.. one of her arguments contained a quote from carl sagan that seemed to.
support creation.
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yes, Fred Hoyle (who lived in my congregations territory) is mis-quoted all the way through the evolution book. Maximus wrote a piece on these mis-quotes. You know what? FRED HOYLE HAD NOT EVEN SEEN THE EVOLUTION BOOK AND WAS ASTONISHED. God rest his soul.
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I'm not a B****** but.........
by JW72 inhi all, i split up with my girlfriend today.. i want to know if i am right in my decision.. we lived in the same flat for 2 years, fairly good relationship.
she went to brussels to study in the european community for 6 months.
i waited for her return, patiently.
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I don't know about the relationship mate, but as for education, well, people are retiring earlier and earlier, it doesnt make sense to spend literally over half your working life learning what your going to do for a couple of years in work.
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Experiences: How you know it ain't the 'truth'
by LDH inplease post your experiences here for any lurkers to read.
when i was a teenager, there was a young lady early 20's who had moved into our cong.
she had a newborn son and had just married her worldly boyfriend, the father of the baby.
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sorry I didnt finish my story, but unbelievably, I got a lot of abuse in the chat room last night from someone with no compassion. I don't really feel up to giving more.
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How many unanswered questions?
by sleepy inhere's something ive been thinking about.. just how many unanswered questions are there?.
what questions do you want answered ?.
what things are definatly known what are not?.
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My question is :
Haemerroid cream contains an extract from shark's liver. How was shark's liver originally discovered to cure Haemerroids?
Was a guy kind of strolling along a beach, sees a washed up shark with it's liver spilled out and thinks to himself, "Got it!". -
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Experiences: How you know it ain't the 'truth'
by LDH inplease post your experiences here for any lurkers to read.
when i was a teenager, there was a young lady early 20's who had moved into our cong.
she had a newborn son and had just married her worldly boyfriend, the father of the baby.
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OK HERE GOES, I've never told this story before...
After my father died in hospital due to the blood issue, my mother quickly re-married a non-believer called Ray who started attending meetings straight away. It never occurred to me at the time how strange it was that he accepted all the doctrines, life style and everything over-night.
The thing was, me and my two sisters didn't get on with him. It's hard enough to accept a new parent, but this guy was a perfectionist and we simply were not used to being shouted at to put towels straight and not to let a cup make a noise as you put it down.
He wrote a list of rules and regulations for the house and organised the rooms as a museum.
He went out in field service and studied the two books as quickly as possible in order to get baptised. As soon as he did get baptised, he started pioneering.
My older sister left home because of the stress level in the house, she was getting panic attacks whenever Ray was due home. There were rumours in the congregation about the way he treated us, but it never came to anything.
Then Ray started getting into fits of rage, his temper became volatile and he would start becoming violent in a split second. Thrown dinners, chairs, TVs, broken mirrors, doors, etc soon became part of life. I remember covering for him on several occassions when brothers would visit out of fear.
Sometimes as he prayed over a meal, it would go, "Dear Jehovah God, we thank you for this meal which has been lovingly prepaired, we thankyou for all of your loving provisions. Please help us to be obedient and respectful and help (deep sigh)------- help the children to do what they're TOLD (starting to quiver with anger) help them because we're all imperfect and...and...and...God (said as a cuss) ..."
I never felt right saying "amen" to prayers like that and if the meal started like that, you knew dinners were going to end up on the floor.
(would you thank God for something and then throw it on the floor?)Ive just realised this is a bit long winded -= can i finish it later? It gets worse.
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Experiences: How you know it ain't the 'truth'
by LDH inplease post your experiences here for any lurkers to read.
when i was a teenager, there was a young lady early 20's who had moved into our cong.
she had a newborn son and had just married her worldly boyfriend, the father of the baby.
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The whole disfellowshipping thing is barbaric. Disfellowshipping on it's own is enough to prove they don't have "the truth".
They will pour out attention and time in studying and helping non-believing new-comers, but when it comes to one of their own slipping up, THEY KICK YOU IN THE TEETH WHILE YOUR DOWN.When I was disfellowshipped, I was only 22 and going through a divorce at the same time. I also was out of work. It was the equivalent to going into solitary confinement. And when I phoned an elder for some moral support (I was feeling suicidal) do you know what he said?????
PHONE THE SAMARITANS OR THE CITIZENS ADVICE BEUREAU!