Welcome to the community! I am sorry that are feeling low after the events, but we are very glad to have you with us
I must echo the thoughts of Francois and others but you must make up your own mind .
Please use this time as a wonderful opportunity to re evaluate the "Truth". Think objectively about your beliefs. Test them against reason and logic ,using all the info you gain from all the sites. Pretend that you are starting new with no preconceived "Truths" - now does it all still appeal to you as it once did?
They like to use the example of those Borea (Acts 17;11) who accepted the message but only after they had "Carefully examined the scriptures daily " not in a trusting way but "As to whether these things were so"
So put it all all to the test. As Ray Franz said "Let the Scriptures speak for themselves" If it is the truth , it will stand up to scrutiny.
Stay around the board and your comments are welcome.