My heart goes at to you,. Es. I experienced the same thing when my siblings told me they could not talk to me anymore. I cried the entire night, but I have built a wonderful life for myself and am so happy I made the decision to get the hell out when I did. Through the years I asked myself so many times, why don't they see how ridiculous this all is, but they are just not ready to wake up yet and I had to accept that. Draw strength from the fact that you made it out, so many don't ever get to taste this wonderfully, delicious freedom
Namasti
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As of Thursday night I am no longer a Jehovahs Witness
by Es inyep my fade has come to a stop, got the phone call off my dad today he asked me if i celebrate christmas and birthdays and i said yes, and so he said they are going to go ahead with the disassociation letter i sent over two years ago!!!!..
he said that after today the only phone calls i will get are if there is an emergency, but nothing social my response to that was well you havnt seen or spoken to me for over a year im used to it.. he also said there was no bad feelings and that i should never doubt there love for me, and that the stupid thing of it is they can associate with mike and the kids just not me.. im really happy and calm about it, ive had my initial cry over it, and now i feel good that i dont have to lie and hide things anymore.. its such a relief.. luv ya all.
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Do you find the forum addictive?
by avidbiblereader inhow many find that they need or want to be on the forum at least once a day?
do you like keeping up with fellow posters and friends or do like being able to give your thoughts without the fear of being criticized?
i look at some of the amounts that some have posted wow and i am no better for only being here less than a month, it is a great place to talk and get loads of wisdom from others on a variety of subjects, thanks everyone for the thoughtful expressions and heartfelt posts.. abr.
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Yes, I am so addicted. Not that I'm on it every day but I sure can't wait to get back on--first chance I get. What can be better than poeople who really understand where you're coming from. Who have been through many of the same experiences you have. Don't judge and are Open Minded, have moved on and experiemented with other ideas and concepts and I so have made some very interesting discovereies similar to what I've discovered, are also so very bright, vitty, funny and great sense of humor, brillient minds that know who they are--this has been earned by many of us. Yes--no better place for an addiction--don't you think:??
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I told my wife why I wouldn't comment at the last WT Study
by OnTheWayOut ini told my wife (faithful jw) that this past sunday, i found some objection to the .
wt study and could not raise my hand.
she had wanted to know why i did not comment.. .
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My prayers are with you. I was married to an elder and when my eyes were opened and I became a "nonbeliever", the differences between us became too great and we had to go our separate ways, but I always wondered if it is possible to have a happy marriage with one person in and the other out of the borg. That would be a challenge, but I'm sure it can be done and has been done successfully by many. I guess it would all depend on many things. The foundation of the marriage, how open-minded is the active JW, etc. Let us know how it is working for you. I'm really curious. Best wishes
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Appreciating true spiritual freedom - a word to our newbies!
by diamondblue1974 ini remember my feelings of bewilderment when i first read through threads on jwd back in february 2005; by then i had been an exjw for over a decade.
i must have been at my pc for two days solid while i just read and read.
it was impossible to take everything in, but i couldnt stop reading and couldnt stop taking in all the information this site contained.. i remember the initial fear i felt too, like reading about other's experiences was an act of rebellion or evil.
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Gary, Oh how I can relate to what you are saying and that is why I have always felt that it is not enough to just accept living as an inactive JW. For all those who (for reasons they don't even fully understand) have stopped attending meeting but are now stuck in a limbo-kind of dilemma, my wish to them is to find real freedom by doing just as you did and as I also did. Yes, it's necessary to start from scratch, read all kinds of spiritual/religious info or whatever it takes to release the JW mindset and taste true freedom. It is an indescribable joy. I am so grateful that I did what I had to do to now live in freedom. Now 15 years later I still I'm still in awe of how trapped and blind I was and didn't even know it. Gary, it just gets better and better and oh so much better. Thank you for sharing your inspiring discovery.
Namasti
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anyone feeling a wee bit guilty about celebrating Thanksgiving and Xmas??
by Star Moore ini was feeling a bit guilty about celebrating as this is my 1st year out and i know the history of all the holidays and birthdays are pagan or bloody or idolatrous.. .
but i was thinking that it's not what someone made them in the past but what they are right now.. to us, at this moment.
am i going to sit down on thanksgiving.. and say, "i hate those indians, think i'll go kill some"..????
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I am sure there were people in the past who had great, wonderful, wholesome Thanksgivings, including the Indians, and oh yes, God forbid--that those "pagans" had good, clean unviolent celebration. Jw's will knock themselves out looking for the worst in anything. NO GUILT--NOT A BIT. Just the absolute wonder, fun, joy of it all.
Namasti
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Are You a Latitudinarian? (Liberal)
by compound complex inlatitudinarian, a. liberal in one's views; permitting free thought, especially in religious matters; very tolerant of the differing opinions of others; as, "latitudinarian" opinions or doctrines.
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dear friends of liberal persuasion,.
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Namasti
Reading the comments above was so great to see that so many have discovered as I have ---the beauty of having the freedom to thing on our own, form our own conclutions and accept people for who they are . What a wonderful thing, truly liberating. Enjoy the ride.
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my cat died today... i need consoling...
by theinfamousone inthis is the guy that sat on my razor blades the one time i was thinking of cutting myself... this is the guy that everytime my dad beat me, would come to my room and lay with me... this is the guy that one time jumped into the bathtub with me while i was crying after a brutal beating, the cat hated water... this is a cat that was more family to me than my own father and mother combined... this was my best friend... .
today i had to do the hardest thing i ever did, i had to choose to have him put down... and as he fought the vet, and tried to bite her, i put my hand on his head, and he stopped struggling... and as they put the last needle into his leg, he purred until he died... the vet says she has never seen that before... this was my best friend and i had to kill him... fuck, im a baby, but i miss him soooo much.
the infamous one.
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I am so sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine what it would feel like to lose my precious cat. I can't stand the thought of it. I am hoping that healing comes quick. Let me know.
Namasti
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Religion vs. Christ
by *jeremiah* inreligion vs. the reality of a personal relationship with christ.
the following is what i have come to believe the through bible reading:.
religion: can have outward forms that bring us into bondage to those forms.
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Stark,
Were you a JW? I'm asking because it appears to me that you are still trapped. You left an all or nothing mentality and adopted another-- "all or nothing" Bondage is bondage. Believing there is only one path, one way, one road to "salvation" is far from true freedom. People have misinterpreted Christ message completely. He never wanted worship and he himself was universal if you look deep enough. It appears you still have that JW mentally. I opened my mind completely when I left the JW's and what an incredibly liberating experience that has been for me. I hope the same for you.
Namasti
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JW restrictions on sex, lead to over hype that made sex disappointing.
by free2beme ini remember being a teenager and my hormones were on overdrive.
the young witnesses i knew, male and female, were all feeling the same thing.
we would bring up sex, in one form or another, all the time.
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I married an Elder at 19 years old. I thought I was so lucky--I got an Elder--a very sexually inexperienced elder. It took a while for sex to become enjoyable. After about my 10th affair, I finally learned to enjoy it----just kidding--not quite that many. Well, wonder why that marriage didn't last.
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The new Track has anyone heard?
by ladione5000 inwe are all doomed to death, i think by the end of this year too, so we dont have long .
i heard that the work is going to stop, that would be kindof nice here since it is so cold in the winter and knocking on doors waking people up is really lame in the first place, i often wondered why we had to hit the streets so early and make people so angry?.
well supposely this new track is hitting him where it hurts, they are out right telling people they are going to die at the hands of god if they do not join up with the jws right now.
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I saw this God-awful trac----------- made me think--The people printing this garbage up there in Brooklyn--you think they really believe this or do they just know they can make Jw's buy anything they say cause it's coming from "THE GREAT AND MIGHTY OZZS up there in NY. um????