I do know what you mean. I've felt that way before. But what I have found true for me is that He DOES reveal himself but not with water to wine or parting seas or lightning from heaven. He reveals Himself to those that search for him and it's on a one to one personal basis. I've truely looked for him and begged him to show me he was there. He finally did. I still have battles of faith but I really have a relationship with Him now and I don't know how I ever was a beleiver in the WT. I can see why so many leave it and become anti god and anti religion. I am in fact anti religion, and so is the church I go to. We don't have man made rules and we don't judge. We just congregate to praise God in prayer and song and fellowship with beleivers and other than that, it's between you and your creator what you do. I hope and pray that you will connect with Him and find that faith in Him that you're missing at this moment. Don't feel bad for ever having doubts either. Just press on and daily ask God to show you he's there...He Will, I Promise.
Renee (of there is God and Love after Cults, class)