adonijah,
Welcome, you are no doubt sincere in what you believe. If there several people willing to make statements about the truth of a matter, which should we listen to? I say listen to all and weigh up the evidence. JWs say listen only to me, and do not listen to anyone else, for no one else can be trusted. Yet the Bible commands us to rest everything, and keep testing that we are in the faith. Do you follow this command?
The truth can withstand scrutiny. With the greatest respect, truth does not have to hide behind censorship. Anyone with any intelligence knows that it is the false witness who cannot stand to have read the testiminies of others. The witness who says everyone but me is a liar, without hearing the other side of the story, clearly has much to hide.
I have read a dozen books recently, half of which were published by the watchtower society, and half by non or former JWs. You are not allowed to read these because your god is 12 old men in new york. You put your trust in a hiuman organisation, contrary to scripture. You have surrendered your conscience men, who are your pope. If you had access to the information I have, your conscience would not permit you to remain a JW. To quote an elder who was tasked with researching watchtower history, when I read what was published around the time the organisation was supposedly appointed in 1919, I came to realise that there was not one chance in a thousand that God was directing this organisation.
Every time I study with my local elder, I catch him out in a lie. He has no answer, so tries to change the subject, and refuses to look at the Bible text in context with me. Why? What truths might the Bible and Watchtower publications contain that could threaten JW beliefs? The truth will make you free, what are you afraid of friend?
Christian (unconditional) love