Thanks all for your love. I talked to my sister today on the phone. She needed a ride to go to the bank and needed to get a few things at the store. A few minutes after I spoke to her, she called me back and said that her husband was going to take her so I didn't need to. Who know's what that was about because her husband is at work all day? Oh well.............I hate to even think it...........but a part of me was glad that I didn't have to see her. I guess I want to remember her the way she was when we were growing up. And I'm always afraid to take her places because she might lie to me so that I could drive her somewhere to get drugs. I'll never cut her out of my life completely, she's still family and I don't want to be like THEM. But I also have to protect my children who would have been in the car with her. This is a problem only a mother can solve and it's too bad that she won't get that help. One's things for sure, my parents have taught me alot about how NOT to be a parent. I would keep coming after my child whether they wanted me there or not. I hope nothing like this ever happens to my own children, but if it does, I won't abandon them! Thanks for the love, Love
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by love11 ini'm feeling it again.
it's one of those days i guess.
yesterday, my aunt called and we talked about my mom's visit.
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by love11 ini'm feeling it again.
it's one of those days i guess.
yesterday, my aunt called and we talked about my mom's visit.
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Thanks es and greendawn-
I feel that the treatment from the wt and family members obeying the wt, is in this case partly to blame for her mental illness. Interestingly,....... her "mental illness" began when she was raped by two elders boys. But of course it was her (they said) fault for being a c cup at 13. It was not a "nice" or "pretty" thing. The way she said what happened was tramatic and very violent and sadistic. They told her that she needs to be quiet about it and dress more appropriately. (my parents made us dress almost like amish people) and they didn't believe someone like her over ELDERs boys.
She ran away after that and so started her life of drugs, etc,.
Also, those boys were eventually disfellowshipped because they did the same thing to another elders daughter. Then they finally did something. But no police were ever called.
I can't ponder over any of this because it would drive anyone crazy, but I love my sister and I hope someone helps her soon. Thanks for all of your love and support for me and my problems. I only wish I could tell her about all of you.
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by love11 ini'm feeling it again.
it's one of those days i guess.
yesterday, my aunt called and we talked about my mom's visit.
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Thanks you guys!
I forgot to mention that there may be some hope that happened from a bad situation. The last time she went into the mental hospital she was able to release herself because she is an adult and they can't keep her against her will unless she becomes a menace to society. Well...a few weeks ago she got into a fight with her son and her son's friend. She started attacking them because she wanted drugs and they wouldn't give them to her and because she thought his friend was staring at her funny. So she started punching them and tried choking them around their neck. They didn't hit back but ended up taking her in the front yard for the neighbors to see as eye witnesses. When the police got there, it took 5 men to hold her down because she was throwing a complete fit. They put her in a padded cell where she continued to knock herself against the door and bruised her entire left side and arm and fractured her tailbone from falling on the floor. (that's what she went to the hospital for with my mom and they found all of this out).
Anyways, the lawyer said that she'll probably have some jail time for this one. I'm hoping that when she goes into court the judge takes one look at her and puts her in an institution. That way they will make she that she has her medicine, takes a bath, and is taken care of. Maybe now that she is causing trouble for other people, she will be around those people that love helping the sick.
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by love11 ini'm feeling it again.
it's one of those days i guess.
yesterday, my aunt called and we talked about my mom's visit.
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I'm feeling it again. It's one of those days I guess.
Yesterday, my aunt called and we talked about my mom's visit. (I haven't seen her in about 8? years or talked to her) Then she came into town to see me and my sisters and acted like nothing had happened.
I'm starting to feel some anger creeping in and sadness. I'm mad at how she treated my sisters (and me), I feel like they really need a mom and she just isn't there for them. My oldest sister is mentally ill and is in desperate need of help. No one can seem to get through to her except for my mom. She even went to the hospital with my mom to be checked (something she never would normally do because of her fear of doctors). I talked to my mom about her and her drug abuse, depression, etc, and she said, "She has made her own decisions and this is the life she has chosen. If only she stayed in Jehovah's organization then she wouldn't have fallen prey to satan's tricks." I said, " Mom...... she is mentally ill! She has made bad decisions in her life because she has mental problems. Mental illness and drug abuse go hand-in-hand. She cannot be held accountable for her actions when she has an illness that makes her act crazy, abusive, violent, overly sexual, and emotional. She needs help."
She needs someone to help her so much!!!! I feel empty because I want to help her but I can't and still maintain my family. Also, I might be putting my own safety in jeopardy. I don't know what to do.....I feel like someone's going to find her dead from an overdose. And my mom acts like she is getting everything she deserves because she isn't going to the kh. There is no way she could sit anywhere in public, let alone at a judgemental kh!! She looks homeless now and her black makeup is smeared all around her eyes, I don't know when the last time she had a bath was. She needs to be institutionalized and my mom is in la-la land acting like all of her problems would be solved if only she went to the kh to get rid of the demons inside of her!!!!!!
I don't like my mother. I don't care for the person that she is and the beliefs that she stands for. Her entire religion looks at a person and if that person is not doing everything they think a good person should do, then they discard that person like trash. How can parents dump there children because they are not doing exactly what they want them to do? Aren't we all individuals with free choice? Didn't our parents know that when they decided to have children? Did they look at there baby and say, "You will only be my child if you do what I say or think the way I want you to think." ? Would a mentally ill or disabled child not be loved anymore because they didn't follow the strict guidlines that a publishing company insisted god wanted them to follow?
Love....................I read another thread about how there were two things god commanded for us to do. 1.Love god 2. Love each other. And all the other rules can be dismissed because those are the only two rules that you should go by now.
Not that I believe in the bible, but if that is where the jw's are getting their rules from then how come they have added so many other rules. Like the pharisses(?) . Before my mom left to go back to Florida she said was mentioning all of the bad things that are happening in this world. Yet when I pointed out that all of those things she mentioned are happening in the wt organization she just said, " Well.....I don't think anyone's normal anymore. We all have our faults because we are imperfect." I wondered why she could only give forgiveness to other people that are as judgemental as she is. It's ok to point the finger at someone else, I guess?! My uncle said, "When you point a finger at someone else, you have three fingers pointing back at you."
It's too bad that this book that men wrote so long ago is causing so much unhappiness. Also, I thought it was funny that my mom started putting down the scientologist because their religion was just made up in the 80's (so she said). So I said to her, "Ya, but people have always been making up there own religion, like even 100 years ago it was happening." LOL
Hey... thanks for letting me vent! I feel better now.
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LOVE is the sign
by LouBelle inin my jc meeting i kept on at the elders about love.
that there was no love being shown in the congregations & even toward me on how they were dealing with the whole situation & towards my mother.
i mentioned that there were only 2 commandments given to us - 1. to love god & 2. to love our neighbour.
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That is THE reason that I could never be a jw ever again. - They all have CONDITIONAL love! They teach conditional love, they encourage conditional love, they can only give conditional love.
That is something I could NEVER be a part of.
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Check out this Mormon Video! Halarious!
by inquirer inclick on the projector to watch this most hilarious video!
(right beside the joseph smith picture) .
you probably already seen this video (!!!!!!!!!!
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I love Star Trek!
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how do people repent before they start studying or get baptized?
by Daisy21 inhi every body...i grew up beleiveing in the jw religeon...my mother studied off and on.. due to problems in the family she never got baptized...but she allways beleived in it and so do i..but recently i decided that i want to start studying again..and this time serioulsy b/c before i was a kid now im grown..but for the past 10 or more years ive been sinning..i had a baby without being married ...and i used to smoke marijuana alot!
but i stopped ...but i still do smoke ciggarrettes im trying to stop but its hard to quit cold turkey!
my ?for jw please i will take advice from others but i really dont want to b/c i really want to study and eventually get baptized...anyway my ?
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oral sex is wrong even if your married?
Maybe you're just not doing it the right way. Practice makes perfect.
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Supernatural
by susu812 indo any of you believe in the supernatural?
like casting spells and such?
have any of your done it before and been successful?
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I believe our thoughts have importance on making things real or unreal.When I was a little girl, about 4 years old. I told my parents that I was going to go out into the garden to dig and I was going to find an indian arrowhead. They just laughed at me and said, "No your not, your not going to find anything in that garden. Dad has already dug up that dirt to plant vegetables and he would have seen one if it was in there." Something inside just knew that I was going to find one. It was as if I was being told where to dig. I only dug one hole in our entire garden straight down. I found a kids glass marble, I found an Elsie the cow necklace piece, I kept digging. I wanted to give up, and I could have sworn an indian was standing right behind me telling me where to dig. Sure enough I found an arrow head. I was so happy that I started to cry and just looked at it for awhile. I was wondering wether or not to tell my parents because I thought they would take it away from me. But after all of that mocking I wanted to show them that I knew what I was talking about. It seemed like the indian tried to tell me not to go in the house and tell them. But I did anyways. As I walked up the stairs to the house I felt the person leave. I went inside and told my dad and mom. They said, " What?! Let me see that. Well, my gosh you did find one. I'm going to keep it up on top of the book shelf until I can see how much it's worth." They took it away and I never saw it after that. True story.
I don't know if supernatural things are real but some things are just hard to explain. Most of the time I feel like the only thing real is science. But once you have something unexplainable happen to you, it does make you wonder. I've had other experiences like this-
When I was 12, I was thinking about girly things like what my husband will be like and what my kids will be like. I thought I would first have a girl then a boy, about 3 years apart, I would name my girl H******** and my son E*******, and my husband will be dark skinned (mexican, indian, whatever). Every single thing I decided on that day, has come true.
Nowadays, I try to watch what I'm thinking about just in case. But it's hard to keep your thoughts in check. I don't know if it means anything or just weird coincidences. But the jw's think that anything bad that happens to you is from demons, maybe they are creating their own demons.
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Question for Jehovah's witnesses?
by _stone_ ini was reading through a christian forum and there was a thread that someone had started speaking of the trinity.
when i say trinity i mean the father, son, and holy ghost\spirit trinity.
anyrate, sose about a hundred or so post into that thread someone mentioned that jehovah's witnesses don't believe in the trinity.
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I'm an ex-jw, but I used to auxillary pioneer (went door to door 60 hours a month) so I know what they believe.
They do not believe that god is a 3 in one.
They believe-
1. Jehovah God (the only and true Almighty God)
2. Jesus his Son (his actual son or greatest angel in heaven now, not God in any way, shape, or form)
3. The holy spirit (or god's active force, not another being, just an energy)
Why do they believe this? Because they want to.
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CNN: Wild Lions Rescue Kidnaped Girl
by Gerard inpolice: lions free kidnapped girl .
http://www.cnn.com/2005/world/africa/06/21/ethiopia.lions.ap/index.html .
tuesday, june 21, 2005; posted: 11:56 a.m. edt (15:56 gmt) .
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I don't think cnn would be reporting on it if it wasn't true. Why is it so hard to believe that other animals than us can have compassion and instictual love.