I'd like for my witness family to have to answer to my non-witness family for how they treat me. Motherdarling complained that her sister asked her 'what will Sass do if something goes wrong for her?' I should have asked her what it meant; that she couldn't justify the shunning either.
I'm just getting around losing the family and friends, and a coping mechanism is that I've made contact with my non-witness family - aunts, uncles, grandparents. I'm sad that I never really knew my grandparents (Motherdarling having slowed association with them after joining the cult) but I'm now becoming good friends, and just in time I think - the sun is starting to set.... :( It's great to be getting to know them, finally, and it's great for them that a 'long-lost grandchild' is back in their lives (well it's nice to think I'm good for them too).
One scary thought I've just had - that my witness parents and siblings will lie to them about me and turn them away from me too. Surely they'll see through it though? I don't want to involve my 'new' family in the witness games (eg I don't ask them for gossip on the others). I just know how easy it is for a witness to lie to protect their organisation and am sure that my family do it to prevent themselves from looking like the loveless clones they are. If they pretend that I was the one to do the cutting off, I'd be cut.
I suppose I can only stay friends with them, and let that speak for itself. They're probably used to the games by now.
Sorry it's a silly thing to bring up but I've decided to keep a diary of only 'happy thoughts' and so have started using this site to track all my ugly witness-related feelings. The bonus is, this diary talks back!