Perhaps your question does not apply to me as I took a different path than that described by Christianity, although I believe there was a historical person whose Jewish name may or may not have been Jesus (Yeshuah). It took nearly 18 years as an agnostic before I could accept the existance of a "divinity" but that essence is "unknowable" and beyond attribution. So most of the terminology used in discussions about accepting or rejecting a "god" be it of the bibilical version or that of the Veda's or Koran or other texts is too confining and reminds me of the endless debate about how many angels can stand on the head of a pin. I was never angry or bitter about my brainwashed by the JWs, just took an more rational approach to things and weighed my formal education with what little intuition I fealt I had to get to where I was succeptable to a new religious paradigm.
carmel