Troubled,
Welcome, welcome, welcome! As you have read, we are very glad to have you here. I am very glad to have you here. Your story sounds EXACTLY like what I went through from 1996 to 1999.
I had depression issues before I was baptized as a JW in 1990. Medication helped me stay active as a Witness for quite a few years.
When some physcial problems started making it hard for me to attend the meetings regularly, those that I though I could count on dropped me faster than I could say "Help". In their eyes I'd become "spiritually weak". Many in the congregation (like yours) didn't even notice I hadn't been around much for three years.
Where was the distinguishing mark of true Christians? Where was the love? I so completely empathize and sympathize with you!
Seeker and JT have given you the advice that I would have, but I want to reiterate one point: Don't worry about "bringing reproach upon Jehovah" by talking to a counselor. Believe me, they've heard it all before. Step back for a moment and think about it: Do you really believe that God would begrudge your trying to get help?
I would love to chat with you in private on yahoo, msn instant messenger, or ICQ. Email me at [email protected]
Again, welcome and please stay.
circe