Airduster,
I understand where you are at. There are always the questions that come up that sort of conflict with your brain but then you say, well, I will just wait on Jehovah. And as time goes on you sort of let go or forget what it was that you were questioning. Then you end up wasting many many years waiting on Jehovah and well, maybe you have finally gotten your answer. There are alot of them here. And just because you let go of a religion, you don't have to let go of your spirituality. You need to analyze the core of what identifies who you are and live by those core values. There are some teachings that I have grown up with that are too deeply ingrained to let go of. They may be true or may be not but I want to believe it, so I do.
There were three very big issues with me that finally made me take the door out. 1. The UN NGO/DPI affair. 2. The lack of love 3. Hypocrisy.
It was very difficult to leave, it was life altering. Once I was gone it was wonderful, though you go through many different stages, anger, sadness, joy, anger, sadness, joy and a little bit of lost too. But now, the only way I would go back is if Jesus Christ came down from heaven and drug me back, and even then I would be thinking gee, everlasting death or forever with these mean JW's basically eternal sleep or hell. I think that I would chose eternal sleep. Oh well, I wish you much wisdom on your current course.
Loruhamah
