http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20061013/ap_on_re_us/october_snow.
we had a little here - no accumulation.
just a few miles north a different story.. jeff .
Yesterday, here in northern Illinois, we had blizzard like conditions in the morning, the snow stuck a little bit. When I drove to work this morning, there were little patches of snow all over...its a little early but still looked beautiful today!
Nikki
i was wondering what effect the article on the generation change had on most people here?.
for years, the trump card on the ministry when replying to the "it will never come in my day" objection to armageddon, was the doctrine of the generation.
many jw`s probobly held back from making important financial comitments.
I had left the org 3 years prior to this change, but when my mom and I started talking again in 2000, I did ask her how she and my father felt about this, and my mom said she just went along with it and her and my dad did not discuss it. Interesting.
Nikki
today i was typing out thoughts on a thread and it struck me.
i have not seen my one sister in 20 years.
she has missed out on one of my children completely.
Have not seen my dad since October 1992. 14 years. He is still an active JW.
Nikki
dear friends,.
my favorite poem is not in vain by emily dickinson:.
if i can stop one heart from breaking,.
Back in 1990, I won a poetry contest supported by the Library of Congress, my JW parents were so shocked and then they realized that I may pursue this kind of career and started watching closely how much I wrote, they were not excited for me (My mom did apologize for this though when we reunited again in 2000, I thought that was pretty cool that she remembered)....Here goes, keep in mind I was only 16 years, a real deep thinker at that time!
"The Expression"
Allay the harshness in the expression
A jovial pratice is what is favorable
Yet, the practice is distorted and twisted
What a shame a voice says
But, everyone is bound by their own injury
We yell, we yell, and we yell
But, not even one exclusive person hears us!
Shall we disunite and go our distant ways?
No, treasure your life and your race before you
Grope for endurance, reach for vitality
and you will have the right expression
Published in "Of Diamonds and Rust"
Volume 5, 1990
*****Nikki*****
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and mind.
all of the information and research that .
I ve been out for 14 years this month, but I did not know about this board until I discovered it on 2/16/06. I am very addicted to coming here, sometimes I have to say no!
Yet, I find that I know more about the religion I was apart of since I have come to the board, from all the people that post here. Its just more of a confirmation I made the right decision 14 years ago because as I have said in other posts, I left the org mainly because of my parents, I could not take it anymore not so much because of the beliefs. But, since I have done so much of my own research over the years, I know the JW faith is not the truth.
I have become an agnostic, and I m fine with it. This board just helped me learn more and more and I am not only talking of tragic stories, just knowledge period.
Nikki
every so often i dream that i still run into jws and most often in the dream, i'm trying to get away.....any thoughts???
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I just was thinking about this the other day, I have reoccurring nightmares that I am a JW. In fact, I just had a dream Sat, that was a replay of what happened in my childhood one day, the dream was so real to me. I woke up on Sunday, and my husband said something funny, and I just started balling my eyes out! Keep in mind though, that I am almost 6 months prego, so this could be why I had such a reaction. It went away but I was really affected by it. My poor husband was like "WHAT DID I SAY?". I couldn't really explain at the time he asked me because I was sobbing like a big baby. Then it was over, I felt a relief that I have experienced before, I was still FREE!
Nikki
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ies that have happened to individuals on this board.
(what inspired me to write this subject was a bone chilling account .
When my mom and I reunited in 2000, I did not know she was severely depressed and was an alchoholic. Yet, I discovered that she had issues shortly after spending time with her, after seeing her poor a huge glass of wine, a 15 oz glass by the way, at 8:30am in the morning. Yet, I was still not really sure what was going on with her. So, our 1st visit after 8 years of not seeing each other was really strange for me but oh well, I had my mom again on my life.
So, early 2001 comes along and I get a call from Arizona from my mom's boyfriend, that she was passed out with a low pulse one morning and she was taken to the ER in Scottsdale, she had attempted suicide and I later found out this was not the 1st time either. I did not know what to do. I was not qualified. She had swallowed many pills along with a bunch of alchohol.
I remember my gramma being mad at me (not a JW) for not getting on a plane and going to her. I told my grandmother how dare she make this judgement against me, I barely know the woman, and how am I suppose to help? Really, what could I have done? I had 2 little kids at home, I was going to leave them for my suicidal mother? How come my gramma did not get on a plane and go to her daughter. My point is, how come it was assumed it was all my responsibility to take of my mom? She did later apologize to me about and I realized later that my gramma was just scared....
My mom eventually returned home. She was so comsumed with self worthlessness for the failures of her life. Me leaving at 18, my elder dad emotionally abusing her, and basically telling my beautiful mother that he did not love her anymore....and most of all, the watchtower and bible tract society and not being able to fulfill the obligations that are required...
Yet, it is a happy ending. She has been sober for 3-1/2 years and is living her life to the best of her ability. I cannot stand the JW cult.
Nikki
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dividuals reading the answer directly out of the watchtower magazine .
and my thoughts were " does anyone in this place have any imag-.
I have said this more than a few times on the board. I left the org initially becaus of my parents, I couldn't take it anymore. That was 14 years ago this month. I had never planned to go back, but I did wonder if I should otherwise I would die. But, after my own research, and knowing more now about the cult I was raised in than when I was in it, I knew I made the correct decision later.
My point is, I left because of my parents, I really did not know what I believed in. I just wanted to get away from them because of what they out me through.
Nikki
this is my first post, some of you have read my hubby's story - agent smith - anyway i was just wondering if i should write a letter to disassociate myself or just leave things as they are.
i have not been to meetings for about 8yrs but have only just come to realize what a load of rubbish the jw's teach.
now that i have read "crisis of conscience" i have no doubt that jw's are corrupt.
GG/BG,
It would be my fault that this thread was hijaked !
Thread topic, should I DA myself or not?***trying to keep the thread going here***
I agree that you have had a successful fade, keep up the good work. It works for now, later on something may change, you may have to make a different decision, but until then just keep doing what your doing...Nikki
yeah, so this year, for the first time ever, ever, ever, my roommates and i are having a halloween party, and there will be much candy given out to the small army of children on our block who will no doubt be trick or treating.
i'm really looking forward to it.
has anyone ever thought of getting all costumed up on halloween and then hitting all of the elder's houses?
I love Halloween! Yes, I will be giving out candy. Just got my kids costumes last night, my son Dylan woke up with me this am at 5:15, and put his costume on! It was so cute! My daughter Haley is a cute Devil and tried hers on last night. I love being involved in this Holiday, my house is decorated. I am obsessed with Halloween decor too! There is no particular deep reason, its a tradition that my kids look forward too, and I love it.
Nikki
